thank you for your consideration , it really means to me .
since i was a child i really had no appetite to foods specially foods containing proteins , i've been skinny my whole life but once upon a time a friend of mine , suggest me some pills and told me that it worked on some guy and helped him gain weight insanely and instantly , and me , my stupidity made me say yes without a research !
it was about 4 years ago , those days which i was getting noticed about my flushing/blushing issues seriously for the first time .
after i took those pills , i gained weight ,for the first time in my life , i was enjoying eating foods , i woke up motivated in the morning just to eat , life was too good to believe ...
when i stop taking them i started to lose weight and i lost my appetite again .
them days were the same days i noticed about blushing/flushing , i think those pills were containing insulin to make me eat like crazy .
anyway at the same time , another friend of mine took me into a very social business ( just imagine > i could eat , i had a sweet girl friend , i was having a job , studying at one the best universities in my country , damn i missed them all ! i lost them all ) , we had gatherings , face to face presentations , i was doing my best just to make it in the best way , i even ignored my body when it was telling me you shouldn't do it cause you're gonna blush ! it was the first time in my life i was getting noticed like that by my body !
i used to present the business to any kind of people , i did it for a while and everytime i was going to start it , it was like i'm going through hell , i could feel the flames when i was getting approach to the entering door , but at the end i was cool , really cool .
one time i was really stressed before doing the job ( i knew if i go , i got screwed up ) oh damn , everytime i remember it i really want to suicide , i went in and i sat , i couldn't breath , people were staring at me , oh my god , i really wished to die , then i finally started speaking ...
i did the job but when i went out of the door , people came to me just to make sure everything happened in the best way , people looked at me like they saw a monster , i was flushed as hell , i was almost burnt that much that one person shouted and said " were u tanning in the room ? "
just as a history , i was one of those persons which my self confidence made people shocked , one of those me against the world people i used to be , you know , it's too hard for me to live like this , i changed my whole life styles , people don't expect to see me like this .
i'm not sure what is the main cause of my problem but , when i comprehensively look into my life , i conclude that i had the problem under my skin at the whole time of my life but it was not bothering me because i was not trying to make any changes , my body made the orders and i always obey them , since i started eat too much , specially those foods containing proteins >>> histidine >>> high histamine .
i remember that those times ( more than 4 years ago which i got into the problems ) i ate foods just to drink water , drinking water was the best joy of my life .
i match the all symptoms of being histadelic so i give it a shot .
just to add , cyproheptadine which is an anti histamine , really helps me eat and sleep and feel a little bit better about everything , eating is like a torture to me , i don't care if i don't eat , i'm really worried about my weight to not lose it .
there is one thing good in having l-methionine at least which is , it helps burn fat , it really does , and i'm losing the fat which i gained resulting of taking those appetite stimulant pills .
i'm 59 kg , 182 cm .
kind regards
