for a lot of people, they go through a stage where they are like omg alcohol and they drink and party and act stupid, some people get out of that stage, some don't.
You're depressed you can't see things clearly.
I have never had a drink in my life. I am 23.
It's hard with sa to want to get to know anyone, but there are people who aren't big partiers. I lived in a dorm- every weekend I would hear the drunken shouts of people walking around on campus, where I was alone in my room on my laptop, which sure was lonely, but that was my choice.
Look at the people who are at the library or come here on a friday night- usually there's a "I'm all alone" thread~ you're not going to see the homebodies because they're well indoors.
I've always felt like I don't fit in- I felt like that when I was in kindergarted in a gymnastics class, in elementary school, in middle school, in jr. high, in high school, every job (all 7) i've ever had, especially in college- don't know where I fit in now... but i don't think i've ever let myself fit in.
just because you haven't found your niche yet, doesn't mean it doesn't exist!!