haha I ended up playing around on that site the whole bloody night.
I have to say, after an hour or so I think the realisation that it really is anonymous sank in and started to feel more comfortable & less anxious. The conversations from all the sleazebags affected me less and I did manage to hold conversations with a few good people.
I don't know if it decreased my SA overall but i definitely started to feel more comfortable text chatting (I may end up posting more responses on this site and chat room - watch out!)
Can not bring myself to video chat though... maybe I should just hold my breath and give it a go... first steps are often the hardest.
you are very brave, good job.Well I have been skyping with someone from SPW we do the video which was scary at first but now its fine and we just type instead of talkin. It was really scary at first, didn't want to be on vid but now its fine. We spoke on voice once briefly but we prefer the typing for now...it is good for confidence and it's good because your both feelin pretty much the same so you don't feel guilty for any slight pauses etc.
you are very brave, good job.