I am a 19 year old boy/man. I have sa for most of my teenage and it has been getting worse over the years. I am sick of wallowing in self pity and even sicker of trying to become a "Norman" socially active man. I basically have two years of college left and I will probably have to work after that and will probably be kicked out of the first job I land. My social skills are nonexistent and my body language is a dumpster fire. People write me off at first glance. I have long been contemplating suicide and am starting to accept my fate, that of a total loser. I don't even know why I am posting all this here..gosh...