Flyingheart
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I get depressed really easily and I'm pretty sure it comes from my social anxiety. Yesterday at my (new-ish) work my colleague said I could go on my break now so I assumed it was half past without checking the time, I went to grab my bag and my manager (who up until that point had been very cheerful and friendly) asked me what I was doing. I had to explain to her but she seemed a bit annoyed and said if I'm leaving a few mins earlier I should come back few mins earlier, and if I'm alright with that then she is. It sort of came as a shock to me that she was quite sarcastic and different from her usual easygoing self as she'd been friendly to me up until then.
It's such a tiny thing, but for some reason I don't know why, I found myself recording this exchange over in my head like a mantra for ages afterwards and thinking it was all my fault. I got really depressed about it and kept thinking of ways I could have explained myself better, and hating the fact she might really dislike me now for this.
I think what's worse is the idea that she sees me as someone who just doesn't care about her job and tried to scrape a few mins extra break. Which is silly, because I know I'm not that kind of person. If anything, I'd go out of my way to do ANYTHING to avoid situations where I might face disapproval or criticism like this.
I feel really stupid for beating myself up and being so wound up over something so small, but it really effects me sadly. Does anybody else get this, or can relate in any way?
Thanks
It's such a tiny thing, but for some reason I don't know why, I found myself recording this exchange over in my head like a mantra for ages afterwards and thinking it was all my fault. I got really depressed about it and kept thinking of ways I could have explained myself better, and hating the fact she might really dislike me now for this.
I think what's worse is the idea that she sees me as someone who just doesn't care about her job and tried to scrape a few mins extra break. Which is silly, because I know I'm not that kind of person. If anything, I'd go out of my way to do ANYTHING to avoid situations where I might face disapproval or criticism like this.
I feel really stupid for beating myself up and being so wound up over something so small, but it really effects me sadly. Does anybody else get this, or can relate in any way?
Thanks
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