Does anyone else live in the past?

[Plissken]

I live in a permanent state of nostalgia. I always think back a few days or even years, as long as I can remember, and think about how good things used to be. Just things I did as a kid, people I knew. In the present, I'm depressed and the future scares the shit out of me. So I'm never happy at all.

Even things that I'm doing now that I can't enjoy, I will think back to and miss. I can't appreciate things as they're happening and then when I can, those moments are gone.

 

[dottie]

I understand, I often do the same thing. But in reality I must remind myself that I had struggles then, too, and it is only an illusion. It's much like the saying, "The grass is always greener on the other side."

 

[SocialRetahd]

I can't stop thinking about how I let so many people get away with criminal assault. All my values and everything is screwed up. Even if I could make friends, I wouldnt be able to. I have now wasted 5 years! I am in the same exact place I was at 18.

This is a nightmare.

 

[Starry]

I tend to think about the past a lot too... Especially back to school days. I absolutely hated school when I was there... But looking back it doesn't seem so bad... I know it was though.. Oh well.

 

[innocence]

I live in the past daily. I long to have lived in the early years, from the 1920's to way on back, all to the times when life was so much better and people were friendly.

This life I have truly rots. its always lonely, and I have no friends as no one ever has liked me and then also all thru my life I have been made fun of, made a fool of, picked on, and on and on. I always wonder why I was ever born, as I have no purpose in life.

I love movies, the kind that make you feel good and, the kind that I wish I could somehow magically make myself go into, to be with those people who are so nice and caring. To me, to be able to live in that life would be so good.

Another thing I love about the early years is that, it is a safe place for me, and everything I love and enjoy comes from the past. , its very innocent, those past years, when things were just so much better and the movies and TV and music were all clean. I love innocence.


My life has always rotted, and as I said,I have always been alone and no friends and, even jobs I have had, people just do not like me

I am a nervous person when I go out there where people are and, of course it seems I have that look as if I am going to steal something and,it bothers me a lot that they all think this. So many times I just wanna end my life as if I did, it would not make any difference at all, as I would not be missed as I am a TOTAL NOBODY!!

yeah, you know, once a nobody always a nobody

And you ever notice how its always everyone else who are the lucky ones, who never have gotten made fun of, they all are always accepted.

I wish I was accepted ,but, it has never happened and never will, it will be a rotten life till my life ends

All I do is just enjoy what I have, and, it is lonely with this always alone and I wish there were others who were like me, and felt the same about all these things.
But anyways, I just wanted to make a reply here . I know mainly those who posted here are taliing of their past , not the past like before they were born. But for me, I long to be able to live in those early years. I always am wishing for a time machine, so that I could go way back in time and stay there for always. The future has NOTHING, as-this life we live in just gets worse and worse and prices just go up and up and up!


And oh, being nervous and all,of course when people see you are this way, they make fun of you and laugh and, I am so nervous to even talk to people, I about choke on my spit and lose my breath.

I often wonder why I have to get that way because, people are the same all over, because if I eat and drink and have to use the terlit and dress up and wash up and all, they too have to do these same things but, it seems they think they are all so much better then you and, they act like they don't do these things.

I always wish there could be a way to get of all the mean unfriendly people in this world and how this life would be so much better but, the thing is, if it could happen and all these mean unfriendly people were all gone, there wouldhardly be a person left as I find it very rare to ever find a real true friendly and caring person.

Well anyways, I just wanted to say all that I did and would go on more but, I sure do not want to bore any of you and please forgive me if I have.

Thanks for reading my words.

 

[recluse]

Yes. I have memories of when I was at my happiest; A carefree kid untill I got to the age 11. My fondest memories are the caravan holidays with my parents, grandmother and sister when I was a kid. Life seemed to be so blissfull and I had no worries like I have now.

 

[rado31]

Life was always tough. I think if i happened to work in a coalmine in 1920 and after that i had to see some lovely movie from those times with a gurlie i would have been sueecidal.

I m not saying that todays movies are realistic , far from that . They are even not artistic, its pure crap what they make it. I dont remmber seeing good movie made in last ten years.

But to answer to your question: Yes i live in the past. If i live in the future i almost always worry or try to drop worry from my head. never succedeed to live fully in the present, though i read some literature on that subject.

And,I always wondered: Is daydreaming sort of meditation? I always loved to do it, it was non-destructial way of my very imaginative mind to relax.

 

[emmdee]

I understand you too. I had an okay childhood, and it spiralled from there after about grade 4 or 5. I always like to think back and remember what it was like. It's probably why i can't get rid of many things that i had when i was a kid. It's probably why i am trying to forget my old friends, and why whenever they try to talk to me (which is once in a blue moon) i turn cold and try to forget about it. And it's probably why i still act like one sometimes, trying to play the old games i liked and watch the old movies i once loved - all the feelings come back.

The future scares the shit out of me even more. What will i do for a career? What if there doesn't end up being someone who cares? What will happen in death (urgh, that one scares me the most).

I try not to think about it a lot. TV really helps me with that, maybe it will help you too. I hope you get better, i know the past is one of the worst places to be living.

 

[sickofbeinglonely]

I definitely live in a permanent state of nostalgia. I listen to music from the 80s and earlier, read magazines from past decades and spend a lot of time looking at old adverts and even old TV idents on YouTube!!

I can't really say I was happier then but I know I had more confidence. I didn't spend hours thinking about doing stuff - I just did it!! Also those times just seemed a lot more innocent.

 

[Reholla]

I do think in the past a lot... I had a really good childhood, everyone liked me, so now since im not making friends as easily i think back to the past to get my standards set. Like, hey they liked me back then so its no different now.... I wish it were the same as when i was a kid, when everything was good and care free