this_portrait
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I try to think positively about improving, but sometimes I feel hopeless about it, or I'll get scared that I'll start improving and then for some reason I'll stop. I did that two years ago: I started improving and was doing a good job, then I stopped (not out of fear, though; it was for other reasons I don't feel like getting into).
Right now I'm on winter break, and I'm starting to dread the new semester. Part of me feels like it's impossible to make a good impression on any of those people at that hellhole known as my school. I'm nervous that anything I say or do won't be good enough for them. I would like to look at the upcoming semester as a way to start over, but I just feel discouraged.
As for long-term improvement, I dream of it, and I think it will happen, but it's going to take time. I guess it's good that I'm aware of my problems at the age I'm at now; I would hate to be halfway through life and then become aware.
Right now I'm on winter break, and I'm starting to dread the new semester. Part of me feels like it's impossible to make a good impression on any of those people at that hellhole known as my school. I'm nervous that anything I say or do won't be good enough for them. I would like to look at the upcoming semester as a way to start over, but I just feel discouraged.
As for long-term improvement, I dream of it, and I think it will happen, but it's going to take time. I guess it's good that I'm aware of my problems at the age I'm at now; I would hate to be halfway through life and then become aware.
