Do you feel like you weren't meant for this world?

[kilojoule]

It's true some of us really don't have a natural flare for it but I think we can shape ourselves a little. I'm good at other things but this is something I have to work on. It's a disadvantage but it doesn't mean that your back's against the wall. Yes it's very fecking hard to do but you can, like with any other challenge, improve with effort.

(On a funny note, last night I was in a social setting and this guy was talking to me about what I do and asking questions and then he made a 'joke' on a play of words. I didn't grasp that it was a joke and thought he was confused so started explaining the mass difference of a carbon 14 isotope *facepalm* ha so .....yea sometimes despite the work we put in there's nothing we can do about our lack of social cop on ha .....but so long as you can laugh it'll be alright )

 

[Feliscatus]

I've always felt like na alien being. Other people never could understand me, and i never understood them. So many times I used to daydream that next morning I'll wake up aboard a starship taking me back to my home planet (or magically teleported to a fantasy world - I really had a lot of them). Now I've lost all hope. I'm probably in the parallel universe, beyond their reach.

 

[RaphialLee]

hay cay you text me on facebook or some. I feel the same way. no one can help or they just give up on my. I hate that feeling.

 

[laure15]

When I read your post, I feel like reading my own thoughts as if I wrote it! I also feel the same way:

I resent the people around me for being able to communicate so much better--and at the same time, squandering that gift by saying so little that is relevant or meaningful.

I used to live at a college dorm, and when I hear people gossiping and b-tching about people they hate, it annoys me very much. I feel like I'm surrounded by teenagers, even though those people are old enough to drive and drink. They have such good communication skills, but they use it to talk about meaningless things.

When people push me away or criticize me, it's like a dagger in my heart and it ruins my day. I'm afraid to disagree with anyone. I nod or flash a fake nervous smile instead of saying hello.

I don't like it when people jump to quick conclusions about me. It tells me that they don't even bother to understand me and just resort to stereotypes to explain my behavior. I am also afraid to disagree with people because then I would have to argue to defend my position, but I have poor communication skills and I tend to stutter and speak slowly, which can be awkward. I'm also afraid of offending other people if I argue with them. I used to do fake smiles a lot, but people can see right through them so now, I don't smile that much in public anymore.

I don't try to make friends, don't hang out with anybody and my one serious relationship was over two years ago.

I do have friends, but sometimes I wonder if my friends are better off without me. I don't want to drag them into this dark hole that I'm in.

I escape the pain of my life with books, movies, games and fantasies. If I could I would stay at home 23 hours a day talking to myself and buying stuff with my debit card.

Me too. We have so much in common! I stay at home a lot and don't go out unless I really have to. I haven't gone shopping in a long, long time so my clothes are very outdated, but it beats having to go out a lot.

Thanks for sharing your thoughts. I enjoyed reading your post.

 

[AGR]

I feel like I dont belong here because people like and reward bad people,not that I am a saint,but compared to those people I am,I did bad stuff,but at least I regret and try to not do it again.

I also cant understand how people treat others or relationships just like clothes,like trying one out one after the other,using one using the other,trying out both to see what is better,its like they are missing something you cant put inside their heads or they cant understand when you talk about it or when they ask why I am alone,its like I am speaking in another language or I am talking "faggy",just like that scene in the movie idiocracy,its like there isnt any logic in their thinking.

Like for example people saying that you can sleep or have a relationship with someone taken because you arent committed to the other person,that is only an excuse to do bad stuff,guess what I am not commited to anyone,but just because of that doesnt mean I will go around backstabbing people,its just something you dont do it,I would understand if they regret it,but they dont,they just find excuses to justify their actions.

 

[GhoulsNightOut]

I used to feel like that before knowing about the social anxiety disorder. During that time, I couldn't connect with anyone because no one around me shared similar experiences so they couldn't understand my behaviors or thinking patterns. If anything, they were annoyed by it. I also had no sense of identity which made me feel even more lost and inhuman.
But after a few years of doing whatever interests me to get to know myself more and reading a couple of self-help books and llooots of online self-help articles, I don't feel that way anymore. I have the same basic needs to survive and desire to be happy like any one else, only my unusual circumstances shaped my personality to be different to most people here. Doesn't mean I'm not meant to be here and pursue the life I want like anyone else.

 

[Jemo]

Yes. Lots of us here who could probably write that same thing.

I'd really suggest getting an analysis. Once you know for sure what is going on up in your head, you then start up the road to getting help for the problems.
I went for decades thinking I was an alien or an extra stuck on the set of the wrong movie. When I found out names for the crap my brain was generating, the relief was amazing. And I'd found a new starting point.

This stuff gets easier, and takes time, but I had to allow a door to open before I could choose a different direction other than constantly circling in depression & self-doubt. You also then get to tell people what's wrong and then they (sometimes) start to get it.

This is so true. It is such a relief to know that there is a name for it because it also means that it is narrowed down and demystified instead of being some undefined weirdness that nothing can be done about. It also helps to know that there are others out there with similar problems.

I also have the tendency to disappear into fantasy worlds to escape the pain of the real world but am trying to get better at focusing my attention on my problems. Being here is part of that (although I have not posted a lot so far). I try to be more open and honest about it to myself and others, like my family. It is better than trying to hide or forget it, like I did before.

 

[giantyx]

I do not belong in this world. Planet sa please come and fetch me back home.

 

[Foxface]

All the time. No reason for me to be here, can't contribute to life. I'm useless.

 

[Razzlecherry]

To me, it's more like there is no real point. And that isn't as dramatic as it probably sounds. What is the real point for any of us to be here?

 

[stever]

Hey, yes it happens to feel a bit down at times...and when it happens i say to myself: "stop that and get busy!"
Get busy dude!! it feels awesome

 

[jaim38]

When people push me away or criticize me, it's like a dagger in my heart and it ruins my day. I'm afraid to disagree with anyone. I nod or flash a fake nervous smile instead of saying hello. When I have to speak, it's often hesitant and forced. I hate introducing myself to people

This pretty much describes me. I have avpd too. It's hard for me to socialize with other people.

 

[bleach]

I think I am living in an (urbanized, sedentary, technological) environment so radically different from the one I was adapted for that my basic needs and instincts are constantly subverted.

Read about how technological media like Internet porn effects the brain and you will realize how toxic modernity is to human instincts.

And bear in mind that's just one of the thousands of photo/chemo/audiopollutants produced daily by this Babel tower of a civilization we live in.

Add in ever-increasing competition for limited resources caused by mass society and globalization and it iss no wonder the proportion of dysfunctional people grows with each generation.