hi..... i just tried going to my first party in a LONG time (maybe over 2 years i dont know), and the only person i knew was the one who was hosting the party...
i didn't last long.. as soon as i got there i felt horrible, and after about 45mins of staring at the ground and afraid to look at anyone's face, i told the guy that i was going home... so i did.. and proceeded to start crying in the car.....
i knew this would happen because i only knew one person at the party......
ive been playing table tennis for 6 months too... when i first went to the game nights, i was again too scared to talk to anyone and i looked at the ground.. it took me a few weeks before i finally asked someone to practise playing with me.... over the years i did build up some confidence for parties and such, but in the past couple of years, i have had no friends at all, and the social phobia has built up immensely again.... i just got over my bad bad depression last year, and ive had a heap of other mental health problems too...
i read this forum and it seems like you guys are all like me!!. yayaya :roll: