Quietguy11
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Hi I have not posted in quite sometime. The reason had to do with the progress I've been making through psychiatry, therapy, and medication. However, I have since then decreased some of my medicine and am facing challenges again with Social Anxiety Disorder (SAD). One of the underlying problems that I face on a daily bases is that I am very conscious of peoples' presences. Call it what you will, the energy and molecular activity that is within every person that gives them life and functionality.
I seem to be bothered to a severe and crippling degree when it comes to certain people. Here is a scenario: I am with a couple of my friends. I just got off work and am looking forward to hanging out. We all meet up and although I am a little on the nonsocial side of things, I still am able to contribute to some of the conversations that go around throughout the night. This is because I am not completely bothered or distracted by their presences in the room. But if someone else were to come into the room that I am not quite comfortable with, I would find that my anxiety levels would increase, and I would shut down from being able to carry out my end of the conversations as fluently and as natural as before.
I do not know if I am explaining this well enough, I just seem to be distracted by peoples' presences for some reason, and I have no idea why. This also occurs when I am walking along a sidewalk and a car drives past me. I will be so distracted and focused-in on that car until it has long-passed me. The same thing occurs when I am in the room and I have one of my dogs laying at the end of my bed. I will be so distracted by the fact that the dog is in the room with me that I won't be able to concentrate on what I am doing.
I know this sounds bizarre, but this is a real problem that I am facing in life. I find myself paralyzed because of this with anxiety and paranoia because my communication becomes impaired when there are distractions, such as the ones that I have named, in the same room with me.
When I was invited to play Smash Brothers on Wii U with a couple of friends and one of their girlfriend, I found that I was just immobilized the whole time. Unable to function cognitively (memory was really poor/couldn't string together words without feeling like my voice was going to mute on me. I found that when I did collect my thoughts and tried to speak my voice would come out really tired and sickly.
This is a real issue that has been going on for awhile now, and it is beginning to really annoy the hell out of me. I see my friends carrying on in group conversations so effortlessly and naturally and it makes me wonder why it is such a challenge to me. Well, I am not fully unaware of why the reason is. I realize it is because I am slightly (Mildly) Autistic, and I have Social Anxiety Disorder.
In the mean time I guess all I can do is thrive to do the best that I can in group conversations and do my best just to put myself in environments that produce a challenge for me. Eventually (this is my hope) it will get easier and easier, and especially with age.
I seem to be bothered to a severe and crippling degree when it comes to certain people. Here is a scenario: I am with a couple of my friends. I just got off work and am looking forward to hanging out. We all meet up and although I am a little on the nonsocial side of things, I still am able to contribute to some of the conversations that go around throughout the night. This is because I am not completely bothered or distracted by their presences in the room. But if someone else were to come into the room that I am not quite comfortable with, I would find that my anxiety levels would increase, and I would shut down from being able to carry out my end of the conversations as fluently and as natural as before.
I do not know if I am explaining this well enough, I just seem to be distracted by peoples' presences for some reason, and I have no idea why. This also occurs when I am walking along a sidewalk and a car drives past me. I will be so distracted and focused-in on that car until it has long-passed me. The same thing occurs when I am in the room and I have one of my dogs laying at the end of my bed. I will be so distracted by the fact that the dog is in the room with me that I won't be able to concentrate on what I am doing.
I know this sounds bizarre, but this is a real problem that I am facing in life. I find myself paralyzed because of this with anxiety and paranoia because my communication becomes impaired when there are distractions, such as the ones that I have named, in the same room with me.
When I was invited to play Smash Brothers on Wii U with a couple of friends and one of their girlfriend, I found that I was just immobilized the whole time. Unable to function cognitively (memory was really poor/couldn't string together words without feeling like my voice was going to mute on me. I found that when I did collect my thoughts and tried to speak my voice would come out really tired and sickly.
This is a real issue that has been going on for awhile now, and it is beginning to really annoy the hell out of me. I see my friends carrying on in group conversations so effortlessly and naturally and it makes me wonder why it is such a challenge to me. Well, I am not fully unaware of why the reason is. I realize it is because I am slightly (Mildly) Autistic, and I have Social Anxiety Disorder.
In the mean time I guess all I can do is thrive to do the best that I can in group conversations and do my best just to put myself in environments that produce a challenge for me. Eventually (this is my hope) it will get easier and easier, and especially with age.