i guess i shouldn't be suprised if more and more of my "friends" are getting engaged, having children, have steady employment, etc.. they say grass is not always greener on the other side of the fence. But my grass is dead... so anything would be better in what i am living through. I am alone, no friends understand or want to listen to me anymore. They tell me to be happy, get out and do things, well, f*** that, they haven't lived a day in my shoes for one day I am really tired of hearing this. I am tired of my friends being more successful than i am, i am tired of hearing about engagements, and love. Tired of Hearing about Hollywood continuously promoting sex to the attractive people and insulting the people with disabilities and ugliness. I am nearly 30 years old, and i havent even been kissed. I am so frustrated that i am still a virgin, but yet i am too poor to even get a girl to look at me little lone sleep with me. Just angry and Frustrated, and i feel one day i am just going to lose it big time whatever form that takes....who knows, and really who cares, because people are selfish... and don't undetstand.