market.garden
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So I've been unemployed for 7 months, and it that time I've felt more and more uncomfortable around people.
Despite living at home with the parents, I've ran out of money and so feel even more trapped and weak (probably through lack of independence and having to rely on others)
Anyway, with the job market the way it is, it was really hard to find work, but I finally got an interview the other day and it went pretty well, so much so that I was afraid I'd get the job. They contacted me the next day (Friday) and offered the job. Despite being broke, stuck at home, etc etc, I lied and said I'd already accepted a job elsewhere.
I did it partly because the idea of working with new people is terrifying to me, but also, because there's a self destructive side to me that does irrational, regrettable things just to deliberately put myself into a mood. So I had a chance at getting paid work and deliberately ruined it.
Has anyone else been in a similar situation? It's that self destructive side to me that seems to dictate much of my actions
Despite living at home with the parents, I've ran out of money and so feel even more trapped and weak (probably through lack of independence and having to rely on others)
Anyway, with the job market the way it is, it was really hard to find work, but I finally got an interview the other day and it went pretty well, so much so that I was afraid I'd get the job. They contacted me the next day (Friday) and offered the job. Despite being broke, stuck at home, etc etc, I lied and said I'd already accepted a job elsewhere.
I did it partly because the idea of working with new people is terrifying to me, but also, because there's a self destructive side to me that does irrational, regrettable things just to deliberately put myself into a mood. So I had a chance at getting paid work and deliberately ruined it.
Has anyone else been in a similar situation? It's that self destructive side to me that seems to dictate much of my actions