puresadness
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TL;DR: The activities that I used to do are no longer fun. I can't experience fun and excitement anymore. Well I do but very, very temporarily.
Hi folks, I registered on this forums 3 months ago but never bothered to explore it as the next day I was feeling somewhat good .. but not for so long so I decided to join the community here.
A quick intro, I'm a 22 years old male, having a full time job, living with my family, have like only 3 people that I would call friends, started to acknowledge this emotion called 'Depression' recently as I grew up.
In my high school days I don't think I have ever felt depressed since whatever I did at that time was fun and enjoying. In my college days, in the last semesters I started to come late to classes and brush it off with "Yeah I came late there is nothing I can do, no one can stop me, no one cares anyway". At the end I got high GPA anyway. My life has changed when I got a full time job. I felt like, "Okay, now I am becoming an adult, I should not be wasting my time playing video games".
The activities that used to be fun are no longer as fun as they used to be. I used to get excited when a new video game is announced but now it's like I'm reading Facebook. I used to get excited when I see a nice car drives by. Just what the hell?
So I thought maybe I should try out a new hobby. I thought I would try to learn how to draw since I suck at it. I started to enjoy drawing more than gaming. After a couple of years I got better at drawing but it's no longer fun anymore.
I go to Google to find out how to kill Depression "Go out, or listen to music", they said. I went out and felt depressed "Why the hell I'm jogging? It's not fun." I can't feel the emotions that my favorite music has anymore. I even went to a 3 weeks trip with my friends but that didn't help. At all.
In front of my family or anyone else I act normal but on the inside I'm depressed like when I am alone. Some of my colleagues realized that I hardly smile. I have been like that ever since I was born. Fake smile doesn't help because it is fake.
Just to let you know that I never lost my mind. What I mean is I never thought of doing something dangerous. In fact, depression itself is killing my heart.
Hi folks, I registered on this forums 3 months ago but never bothered to explore it as the next day I was feeling somewhat good .. but not for so long so I decided to join the community here.
A quick intro, I'm a 22 years old male, having a full time job, living with my family, have like only 3 people that I would call friends, started to acknowledge this emotion called 'Depression' recently as I grew up.
In my high school days I don't think I have ever felt depressed since whatever I did at that time was fun and enjoying. In my college days, in the last semesters I started to come late to classes and brush it off with "Yeah I came late there is nothing I can do, no one can stop me, no one cares anyway". At the end I got high GPA anyway. My life has changed when I got a full time job. I felt like, "Okay, now I am becoming an adult, I should not be wasting my time playing video games".
The activities that used to be fun are no longer as fun as they used to be. I used to get excited when a new video game is announced but now it's like I'm reading Facebook. I used to get excited when I see a nice car drives by. Just what the hell?
So I thought maybe I should try out a new hobby. I thought I would try to learn how to draw since I suck at it. I started to enjoy drawing more than gaming. After a couple of years I got better at drawing but it's no longer fun anymore.
I go to Google to find out how to kill Depression "Go out, or listen to music", they said. I went out and felt depressed "Why the hell I'm jogging? It's not fun." I can't feel the emotions that my favorite music has anymore. I even went to a 3 weeks trip with my friends but that didn't help. At all.
In front of my family or anyone else I act normal but on the inside I'm depressed like when I am alone. Some of my colleagues realized that I hardly smile. I have been like that ever since I was born. Fake smile doesn't help because it is fake.
Just to let you know that I never lost my mind. What I mean is I never thought of doing something dangerous. In fact, depression itself is killing my heart.