Depressing thoughts :/

[Insanewoman389]

"I get sad off and on and it's kinda random sometimes. I just sit around and mope. But then sometimes I'm fine. I don't even mind the sadness so much. It's the lack of energy that's getting to me. I can't get anything done and then I feel guilty for being so damn unproductive. I just feel useless and I can't move forward in life."

Someone on here recently wrote this and it pretty much sums up how I'm feeling. I'm feeling more depressed about doing nothing cause my sister is going out with MY friend to do stuff but I just don't wanna do anything and it feels like a slap in the face and an example of how unproductive I am and how pathetic I feel. I just feel like if she wasn't so hung go about getting out of the house and being productive then I wouldn't feel so pathetic or like a failure at life. I feel like I just wanna do something because her and everybody else thinks we need to being something but if they didn't wanna be doing something I'd be more than happy staying at home, does anybody else feel that way? That because everybody else thinks we should be out doing stuff that we feel the need to do that? :/

 

[DeadmanWalking]

Yeah, my sadness flickers on and off. Sometimes I don't care that I'm alone here at college, other times it's a pain that I can't shake off and grows by each second. I feel sad when I watch everyone on here talk about their achievements and then I look at my life and see nothing. I'm happy that they're progressing, yet frustrated and sad that I'm not.

Now, you're not being unproductive and you're most certainly not pathetic. As long as something about you is changing, then you're being productive (or so I think anyway). You're posting your feelings on here, so you can change, which means you are being productive in your emotional and social life. Now, why don't you talk to your friend or sister and see if you can hang out with them one day?

Remember one thing: you don't owe anyone anything. Just because everyone is out and about doesn't mean you have to be. Live life the way you see fit. How do you wish to live life? Are you content with the way things are now or do you want things to change? If you desire change, what do you wish would change and what are you willing to do to achieve that objective?

 

[Insanewoman389]

Yeah, my sadness flickers on and off. Sometimes I don't care that I'm alone here at college, other times it's a pain that I can't shake off and grows by each second. I feel sad when I watch everyone on here talk about their achievements and then I look at my life and see nothing. I'm happy that they're progressing, yet frustrated and sad that I'm not.

Now, you're not being unproductive and you're most certainly not pathetic. As long as something about you is changing, then you're being productive (or so I think anyway). You're posting your feelings on here, so you can change, which means you are being productive in your emotional and social life. Now, why don't you talk to your friend or sister and see if you can hang out with them one day?

Remember one thing: you don't owe anyone anything. Just because everyone is out and about doesn't mean you have to be. Live life the way you see fit. How do you wish to live life? Are you content with the way things are now or do you want things to change? If you desire change, what do you wish would change and what are you willing to do to achieve that objective?

Yea that sounds awful! I know that feeling of being happy for others but at the same time it makes you feel awful about your own life, its how I feel most of the time which is why I don't much like being around people. I don't know how long you've been at college but maybe its just gonna take some time *shrugs* Maybe you could join a club about something you really really like? lol :]

I tend to sit home all day and do nothing so its hard to feel like I'm ever doing anything productive. I like your way of thinking though lol
I tend to hang out with my sister on her days off but most of the time I just get so worked up about even getting ready to go somewhere let alone actually going somewhere so I tend to not go :/ That and some days I just don't feel like *shrugs*

Its not really feeling like I owe anyone anything but feel less than enough and realizing that one day I'm going to have to grow up and be responsible for myself which just thinking about is what's been causing most of my anxiety attacks :/ I'm ok with life right now but sometimes I wish I had a job but then when I'm in public and I have problems being around strangers it seems impossible. I'm going to go to therapy as soon as I can and I really think getting some anti anxiety medicine will help at least enough so I can get going you know?

 

[Sora]

You're not a failure and you're not unproductive and staying at home is fine so long as it is you choosing to. Live the life you want!

I often get down and then happy, randomly, and most the time never know why. Worst feeling in the world too! Feel like it right now finding it hard to do anything, even talk here but here I am typing away just before I go try and sleep lol.

I can tell you though, going out doesn't change it, you just get the same feeling but worse cuz then ur depressed but around lots of people who are joking about and talking about general crap that doesn't matter and most people are being fake...I get the depression + more then because I know most of what these people are saying is bull****! (not all the time but most the time).

It's why even in a massive group I still feel so alone. I am just happy for the days I am not like this though. It sucks but try to hang in there

 

[Insanewoman389]

You're not a failure and you're not unproductive and staying at home is fine so long as it is you choosing to. Live the life you want!

I often get down and then happy, randomly, and most the time never know why. Worst feeling in the world too! Feel like it right now finding it hard to do anything, even talk here but here I am typing away just before I go try and sleep lol.

I can tell you though, going out doesn't change it, you just get the same feeling but worse cuz then ur depressed but around lots of people who are joking about and talking about general crap that doesn't matter and most people are being fake...I get the depression + more then because I know most of what these people are saying is bull****! (not all the time but most the time).

It's why even in a massive group I still feel so alone. I am just happy for the days I am not like this though. It sucks but try to hang in there

Mmmm I prefer to be at home I just get worried about the day I have to take care of myself.

Awww thank-you! You didn't have to especially if you wanted to go to sleep but I appreciate it I'm same way but lately its kind of the other way around, I'll be sad and then BAM! I'm happy lol I just never used to be this sad all the time maybe cause I was really naive and had high hopes for the future :/

For me it can help because if I had stayed home and missed out with my friend and family I would feel lonely and pathetic but its hard going out cause I have a hard time being around strangers and being around my friend just makes me feel lazy and pathetic most of the time, not that she puts me down or anything just seeing how her life's going makes mine seem well....pathetic :/

Again for me I don't tend to find what people are saying to be fake I just have a hard time getting a word in and then even when I do most of the time I say it the wrong way and they'll look at me weird or something. I just wish I had more of a life so I had something to talk about lol
I'm sorry you feel that way though.