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I get bloody nervous too if I need to face a social event, It is almost impossible to manage, I totally lose control over myself and the anxiety leads the win.
I wish i could tell u the way, but I don't know how.
It sure helps if u start to think more easily about the situation, not stress out and find distraction to not feel so nervous anymore, but still.. it is a hard competition, I've been there so many times and still do. :[
Btw, I take Oxazepam or Xanax when i feel like i'm not going cuz of nervousness, or when i start to panic or anxiety attacks, i always take this and it helps a lot.
I wish i could tell u the way, but I don't know how.
It sure helps if u start to think more easily about the situation, not stress out and find distraction to not feel so nervous anymore, but still.. it is a hard competition, I've been there so many times and still do. :[
Btw, I take Oxazepam or Xanax when i feel like i'm not going cuz of nervousness, or when i start to panic or anxiety attacks, i always take this and it helps a lot.
anthony43
Member
Hi everyone.
Thought i would say something about myself,hope thats ok!
I am 43 nearly 44,I do not work and havnt for 2 years before that i was a cab driver,it was ok but hardly earnt after expensis more than £150 sad but true.Anyway before that
i was a trainee hairdresser but when i aparently was ready to go on the floor i lost my nerve and left,just didnt think i could cut hair even though i was taught by one of the best in the buisness, became a runner for tv company then became an off line editor but once again when the opertunity came to earn great money i felt i just wasnt eqiped to do it even though i had had 6 years training(nut isnt it).My social life has always been good because even though i am a little odd i have been out with some cracking woman and i mean cracking.In the end it was the same thing cos i could not earn a decent wage or have a future i was tossed asside(understandably i think).These girls woman or whatever could meet rich men and have a great life so even though i am funny,weard, aparently good looking it just not enough in the real world.I have been engaged twice both broken down cos no hope for future.Strangely i met up with my first ever girlfriend in a supermarket and we have been together since 4 years in all .Her marrage broke down and she got house out of it and we live there.We both spoke bout giveing up cabbing cos it was rubbish pay and hard work and i gave up, problem is she left a fella that was earning 150k a year and i am earning nothing.She obviously loves me and i her but i just feel i cant cope with work and find it difficult to socialise where as she is social animal.What am i going to do,we are ok for the moment but all we do is live,no holidays or decent cars.I want to provide but am filled with fear everytime i think about everything i have failed at.I take 225mg venlafaxine which is a miracle drug for me but i still cant really cope with the outside world ,especially not the working world.What can i do,i have always have problems with socialiseing even with my best friens sometimes,odd isnt it,AND every job i went on with cabbing i got nervous even after 20 years.I do not have the answere but feel sure even though my other half loves me to pieces the time will come when i am back liveing in a room by myself.I have doe cbt and found it useless,i have also done a diploma in person centred councilling which i tried to dom professionally but failed cos i kept forgetting what people were talking about,venlafaxine does that.I have tried everything but cant rid myself of the truth that i am A FAILURE:[
Thought i would say something about myself,hope thats ok!
I am 43 nearly 44,I do not work and havnt for 2 years before that i was a cab driver,it was ok but hardly earnt after expensis more than £150 sad but true.Anyway before that
i was a trainee hairdresser but when i aparently was ready to go on the floor i lost my nerve and left,just didnt think i could cut hair even though i was taught by one of the best in the buisness, became a runner for tv company then became an off line editor but once again when the opertunity came to earn great money i felt i just wasnt eqiped to do it even though i had had 6 years training(nut isnt it).My social life has always been good because even though i am a little odd i have been out with some cracking woman and i mean cracking.In the end it was the same thing cos i could not earn a decent wage or have a future i was tossed asside(understandably i think).These girls woman or whatever could meet rich men and have a great life so even though i am funny,weard, aparently good looking it just not enough in the real world.I have been engaged twice both broken down cos no hope for future.Strangely i met up with my first ever girlfriend in a supermarket and we have been together since 4 years in all .Her marrage broke down and she got house out of it and we live there.We both spoke bout giveing up cabbing cos it was rubbish pay and hard work and i gave up, problem is she left a fella that was earning 150k a year and i am earning nothing.She obviously loves me and i her but i just feel i cant cope with work and find it difficult to socialise where as she is social animal.What am i going to do,we are ok for the moment but all we do is live,no holidays or decent cars.I want to provide but am filled with fear everytime i think about everything i have failed at.I take 225mg venlafaxine which is a miracle drug for me but i still cant really cope with the outside world ,especially not the working world.What can i do,i have always have problems with socialiseing even with my best friens sometimes,odd isnt it,AND every job i went on with cabbing i got nervous even after 20 years.I do not have the answere but feel sure even though my other half loves me to pieces the time will come when i am back liveing in a room by myself.I have doe cbt and found it useless,i have also done a diploma in person centred councilling which i tried to dom professionally but failed cos i kept forgetting what people were talking about,venlafaxine does that.I have tried everything but cant rid myself of the truth that i am A FAILURE:[
mikebird
Banned
I'm stuck with Keppra / Levetiracetam and Phenytoin, due to epilepsy. When I reduce dosage, cafefully over months (many other medicine, such as Topiramate, and can't remember others, all those years ago) things improve, and I get my head straight and better than being a zombie.
But for me these chemicals are not really the reason i don't succeed in interviews and don't stay in a role very long is because I can't stand people and we don't get on because I find bosses and colleagues immature, stupid and incapable. My Keppra really made me terrible like that - aggressive and angry all the time. All medicine seems to fade into the background over months of long-term usage. I'll never know if the behaviour they cause are evident to other people around me, but I settle into my old ways as I can see it. After years, I can't tell if the tablets are still effecting me or not...
But for me these chemicals are not really the reason i don't succeed in interviews and don't stay in a role very long is because I can't stand people and we don't get on because I find bosses and colleagues immature, stupid and incapable. My Keppra really made me terrible like that - aggressive and angry all the time. All medicine seems to fade into the background over months of long-term usage. I'll never know if the behaviour they cause are evident to other people around me, but I settle into my old ways as I can see it. After years, I can't tell if the tablets are still effecting me or not...
anthony43
Member
Thanks for your reply mr mikebird.
I think the pils make me as normal as i can be and take them religiously,i hear what your saying about everyone being incapable but feel that the illness is makeing that assessment and not me cos in reality these people arnt so bad and i have no rite to criticize others.Other people do but not me.
I think the pils make me as normal as i can be and take them religiously,i hear what your saying about everyone being incapable but feel that the illness is makeing that assessment and not me cos in reality these people arnt so bad and i have no rite to criticize others.Other people do but not me.
mikebird
Banned
I WANNA WERQ!
I'm good at data analysis and I get the odd scrap of tidbit projects to do on good money, but every 'relationship' I have with the people around and the boss turns into "Uh... Mike.... uhh.. ohhhhh... uh...... " and they get rid of me.
Best bits are working from home - financial reports for private equity banks in Jersey & Guernsey. Working in my pants. Up at 7am. Get things done online all day. Good lunchbreak. Then carrying on into the evening, if I want to. Getting paid by hour. It never lasts. But I love doing it. Sometimes have to have a video conference, and remember to put some clothes on so people in the board room can see me smiling. Have to remember not to stand up, fetching something, so they don't see my bare legs on camera.
I'm good at data analysis and I get the odd scrap of tidbit projects to do on good money, but every 'relationship' I have with the people around and the boss turns into "Uh... Mike.... uhh.. ohhhhh... uh...... " and they get rid of me.
Best bits are working from home - financial reports for private equity banks in Jersey & Guernsey. Working in my pants. Up at 7am. Get things done online all day. Good lunchbreak. Then carrying on into the evening, if I want to. Getting paid by hour. It never lasts. But I love doing it. Sometimes have to have a video conference, and remember to put some clothes on so people in the board room can see me smiling. Have to remember not to stand up, fetching something, so they don't see my bare legs on camera.
Mickery
Well-known member
Woah, hold on there Sparky. It sounds to me that you are a successful individual with plenty of potential, with only your SA holding you back. If it's failure, it's only in a limited area that's affecting others of your life. A lot of people with SA have never had a relationship, for instance. By definition SA is a mode of irrational thought, and it's important as an initial step for you to work on approaching your condition in a rational manner and trying to switch those thoughts around. You could have done far, far worse with your life so far. And you can do far better still. You have plenty of time to do so, no? Illnesses come around, they make you feel bad an affect your life, then you deal with them and move on, no? You get better or learn to cope in a way that allows you to get the most out of life. Everyone with the condition can do it. Have you had any kind of therapy?
anthony43
Member
I am a qualified person centred counciller and done cbt.Believe me friend what i wrote was the best parts of my life in a nutshell,there have been plenty of times i have woken up and not known where i am crazy.Even thought bout wrighting a book but who wants to know about me.I have had a mad life and have only just due to venlafaxine been able to really look at who i am.