When im relaxed im normal, if im panicking i sometimes find it hard to talk or my mind just goes blank, my social phobia gets worse around people my age, im so obsessed with people judging me.
My biggest worry isn't that i might come across "shy", its that i might come across rude or cold towards people.
I find small talk more awkward than silence. It doesn't bother me to sit and eat a meal with someone with neither of us speaking at all. I would much prefer that over some stupid conversation about the weather and the price of petrol being 2p cheaper at tesco.
Silence > Small Talk.
I'm definitely the same when it comes to that. Someone I know drove me home a few months ago and whenever there were 10 seconds of silence, she had to bring on some subject. During my internship too, someone always wanted to make small talk with me during lunch whereas I just wanted to enjoy my break in peace and quiet.
My eldest brother and his family came to Atlanta for Memorial Day weekend and I had trouble acting 'normal' the whole time. All my nieces and nephews are all adults now and I was nervous as to how they would see me. I was uncomfortable the entire time. Didn't know what to do or what to say. After they left I felt sad because it was like I failed somehow.
I wish there was a store where I could trade my personality for a newer model or something.
im usually pretty quiet but i can hold a normal conversation if i have to, its easy for me to hide how im really feeling, ive been doing it for about 7 years now so it comes naturally to me now, i automatically respond without even thinking about it.
of course theres times i panic and when i do i forget what i was gunna say, get words mixed up or i just say i dont wanna talk and walk off
When I'm talking to people, I certainly feel it and I know more than once I've totally frozen up - especially in class. I think if I'm not in the spotlight it's not noticeable and more likely to be interpreted as me not being very sociable, since online friends I've talked to on Skype said they didn't think I seemed anxious at all even though my heart was pounding, my mind was racing, and I was starting to sweat.
I'm pretty sure I must come off as a nutter. When I'm with people I don't know well, I don't say anything unless they ask me a question. I fidget, don't smile or make eye contact. I just hang back and fiddle with my phone.
Sometimes I wonder what it would be like to see myself from third-person. I imagine it would be sad.
No, i'm shy around everyone, family, at work, i don't have much of a natural charisma and i know my limitations. Then again i can be very chatty and confident, depending on the personalities that i'm around. Usually nerdy, non intimidating people.
Get me around a bunch of intimidating people (common, they're everywhere) and i'm very quiet.
It definitely varies for me. Oddly enough, I'm a great performer and good in front of crowds. It's more so one on one interactions that get me, since I'm so quiet. I end up seeming very snobby. I end up putting a ridiculously sweet mask on.
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