this_portrait
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I frequently have urges to do outlandish things and act in a way that would amaze anyone who knows me, whether it be talking more or raising my voice.
There are many times, however, when I feel the need to blow up on or get into spats with someone. Almost always, I'm in a bad mood or under extreme amounts of stress. Sometimes, I have acted in a passive-aggressive manner towards people instead of outright cussing them out.
I feel like I have a lot of extreme emotions (especially anger) that I would throw at people a lot more if social anxiety didn't hold me back and give me the fear of looking like a crazy fool. In a way, it's a good thing, but it's bad at the same time because I'm keeping them bottled up. It's like I'm an extrovert on the inside.
And I can't help but feel like I have the personality (especially the temper) of an alcoholic because of this. I rarely drink, but I grew up around a "social drunk" and have had other relatives who were/are addicted. I don't think I have it in me to become an addict, though.
Can anyone relate?
There are many times, however, when I feel the need to blow up on or get into spats with someone. Almost always, I'm in a bad mood or under extreme amounts of stress. Sometimes, I have acted in a passive-aggressive manner towards people instead of outright cussing them out.
I feel like I have a lot of extreme emotions (especially anger) that I would throw at people a lot more if social anxiety didn't hold me back and give me the fear of looking like a crazy fool. In a way, it's a good thing, but it's bad at the same time because I'm keeping them bottled up. It's like I'm an extrovert on the inside.
And I can't help but feel like I have the personality (especially the temper) of an alcoholic because of this. I rarely drink, but I grew up around a "social drunk" and have had other relatives who were/are addicted. I don't think I have it in me to become an addict, though.
Can anyone relate?