Ick. I feel exactly the same. You should definitely rant on here pink! There are all these people there to help me who are worrying about me, and all I want them to do is just STOP worrying about me. And my boyfriend is there for me to talk to me and to support me, and I just don't want to talk about it, but I just want to stop feeling like this, and I want to have a relationship with my family and my boyfriend that doesn't involve them trying to help me all the time.
But I do want to get better, I just don't want to have these stupid negative emotions any more. I want to stop being depressed all the time, and just sitting in my room on my own all evening just spacing out and just being really negative.
I'm so emotionally tired and then on top of that, I still have to try and go to college every day, and I don't so I'm falling behind, and then I have exams coming up, and I supposed to be able to study for them, and I just feel so overwhelmed.
And I feel guilty and selfish for having people worry about and give up time and energy to help me. So I just cry all the time.
I know none of this will make you feel any better, sorry :
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And I just ranted too, sorry again.
I hate bad spells. It's like, those good few days are so brief, and then I spiral right back down to an even lower point. It's the depression that's really bothering me these days...anyways.
I hope you feel better soon pink_glitter :
: Just try and be more open i suppose. I know that when I
do talk to someone, I feel sooo much better. So I guess so start talking and let it all come tumbling out...
I'm sending you good thoughts!