I'm not skipping it but I'm definitely not looking forward to it. I don't enjoy Christmas. It's more stressful than anything. I hate the Christmas music. I hate the hell of trying to find the right gifts. I hate the family gatherings. My dad's relatives are mostly loud and kind of obnoxious so I don't really fit in. I'd prefer to just sit in the corner and be quiet. My mom's family is alright, but I'd still rather sit and be quiet and not have to talk to people too much. I'm dreading it more than usual this year because I'm so ashamed of myself for having been out of school for a year and a half and having not found a new job yet. Too unmotivated and afraid to even look. I'm really not looking forward to the inevitable "So where are you working?" interrogation. I don't want to talk about it. If I was applying and simply not having any luck, then I'd probably be less embarrassed about it and at least I'd have something to talk about. But I sure as hell don't want to admit to not having applied at all. Ugh, it's gonna suck.