mee too
Hiya
,
I'm a 25yr old male from south brissy (around the Mt Gravatt area) - moved over here from Christchurch NZ about a year ago.
I have made a few friends, which I find hard because I think i'm being judged or not good enough etc for a long time until I can trust.
I've had to work full time since I got here, and unbelievably its in retail at the moment which makes things almost impossible!! I take small doses of xanax to relax me at work and take the edge off otherwise I don't know what to say to people or look down, and if im managing that day and we are out money I think somehow I will be suspected or thought of as the culprit which makes me act guilty, situations like that really stress me, things like going to a friends and seeing someone new there will make me change completely.
I know its all in my mind and push myself to accept other people and not "act" around them but its hard to respond to the cues all of the time.
Once I know someone for a while I turn opposite, love doing things like rock climbing, go carting, road trips and just hanging out, and with a bit of alcohol even been to the valley and city clubbing a few times playing pool and having a good time! sadly my first actions may have presented some of the best relationships I could have had in my life.
Anyway I'll post my email here if anyone wants to chat.
messagemike
@
hotmail.com