punklove
Well-known member
Constant Struggle
I’ve always been sensitive and too insecure,
I’d stay home alone and drown in my tears.
My friends always left me it hurt every time,
Always wondering if that was a sign.
Here I am and nothing’s changed,
Sitting here taking all the blame.
Best friends never understand or stay true,
I guess I’m alone in what I’ve been through.
Deprived of my sanity alone and confused,
This isn’t what I wanted not what I choose.
Gregarious people and I’m the recluse,
Having nothing to gain and everything to lose.
Four eyed freak loner girl that’s who I’ll be,
At least that’s how everyone thinks of me.
My skin isn’t thick I know I’m not tough,
I’m not smart or pretty I’ve been through too much.
You wonder why I don’t go outside,
Why I live in my bed choosing to hide.
Try being me and see how it feels,
Being the only one who isn’t shallow but real.
Get back to me when you see what it’s like,
You’ll know that all along I’ve always been right.
I’ve tried many times to just be myself,
No one respects that no one tries to help.
So **** everything I’m going to sleep,
I’m tired of being the one who’s tortured and deep.
If you need me I won’t be here anymore,
I’ve given up I’ve collapsed on my floor.
My skins falling off as I continue to cut,
From lacking love and wanting to be touched.
Ostentatious individuals revel in unrequited feeling,
Choosing to ignore the real world and breakdowns hit the ceiling.
I laugh because they ignored my warnings,
Now they realize why I’m mourning.
But it’s too late staring down at my grave,
You could have said something I could have been saved.
Yet selfishness cursed you with a heartless soul,
Now the dirt’s been dug up I’ve been thrown in a hole.
Goodbye superficial bitches I won’t miss any of you,
Cause your still smiling after you’ve seen what I go thru.
I’ve always been sensitive and too insecure,
I’d stay home alone and drown in my tears.
My friends always left me it hurt every time,
Always wondering if that was a sign.
Here I am and nothing’s changed,
Sitting here taking all the blame.
Best friends never understand or stay true,
I guess I’m alone in what I’ve been through.
Deprived of my sanity alone and confused,
This isn’t what I wanted not what I choose.
Gregarious people and I’m the recluse,
Having nothing to gain and everything to lose.
Four eyed freak loner girl that’s who I’ll be,
At least that’s how everyone thinks of me.
My skin isn’t thick I know I’m not tough,
I’m not smart or pretty I’ve been through too much.
You wonder why I don’t go outside,
Why I live in my bed choosing to hide.
Try being me and see how it feels,
Being the only one who isn’t shallow but real.
Get back to me when you see what it’s like,
You’ll know that all along I’ve always been right.
I’ve tried many times to just be myself,
No one respects that no one tries to help.
So **** everything I’m going to sleep,
I’m tired of being the one who’s tortured and deep.
If you need me I won’t be here anymore,
I’ve given up I’ve collapsed on my floor.
My skins falling off as I continue to cut,
From lacking love and wanting to be touched.
Ostentatious individuals revel in unrequited feeling,
Choosing to ignore the real world and breakdowns hit the ceiling.
I laugh because they ignored my warnings,
Now they realize why I’m mourning.
But it’s too late staring down at my grave,
You could have said something I could have been saved.
Yet selfishness cursed you with a heartless soul,
Now the dirt’s been dug up I’ve been thrown in a hole.
Goodbye superficial bitches I won’t miss any of you,
Cause your still smiling after you’ve seen what I go thru.
