kristina303
Well-known member
Sometimes I think i'm depressed, but most of the time I'm usually a very happy person. Or I act that way. The only time I really feel like I'm depressed is when I am about to go to bed. I'll start thinking about everything. I just feel worthless. I can't get a job, and I'll never be able to help my dad out (who is 56 years old), with the bills. He doesn't even have a job right now, and I feel horrible that we are barely living when I could easily probably get a job. I've been missing a lot of school again, and it's barely the beginning of the year. I'm in 12th grade, and I REALLY don't want to drop out when I'm so close to graduating, but I think i'm going to end up doing it. I just don't see the point in graduating anyways. I'll never be able to get a job so what's the point? My classes make me too nervous. And I go out to eat with my friends for lunch everyday and her bf's brother is always there and he knows I think that he is cute, so I am ALWAYS super nervous when we go to eat. Plus, having to eat around him is HORRIBLE. I won't talk to him anymore because I'm too nervous and he wants to know why. My friend just told him I was shy. She is the only one who knows about my S.A. I just don't know what to do. I can't talk to my counsler at school. I have before and I'm sorry but she just doesn't understand. I already skipped school today. I think i'm going to drop out tomorrow. Sorry about the long paragraph btw. 
