punklove
Well-known member
I really need to vent right now.
Lately I've been realizing that I basically have NO friends.
I just want to hang out with someone and NOT my bestfriend Katie because she's really annoying which I know isn't nice to say but I really don't have any fun with her... We just do the same things all the time and she always expects me to follow her and do what she says, like she's the boss of me or something.
All the friends I used to have don't even care about me anymore.
Am I that boring and pathetic that people just stop talking to me ?
I feel like cutting so badly right now but I know if I do that I'll eventually feel even worse about myself.
I need friends :'( Stupid f*cking anxiety is just ruining my entire life.. my entire future... everything's going down the drain for me.
Honestly I miss school. I haven't been to school for like 2 and a half months (due to anxiety) And I do pretty much nothing all day. I know that if I go back to school I'll be overwhelmingly anxious and I hate that. I feel like such a failure and there's nothing I can do about it.
I'm in tears now and I can't shake the feeling that I'm worthless. What am I contributing to the world? Nothing. There's no reason for me to be alive. I know this is all so overly morbid but this is just how I'm feeling.
I'm 16 years old and I feel like my lifes already over... That it just can't get any better for me.
I'm sick of trying. I don't want to be here. The only reason I'm still here is because I couldn't leave my boyfriend I'm so in love with him and he's the only thing that's holding me up right now. But if he wasn't in my life I know that
I would be dead.