Hottie
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I am starting this thread as i am getting serious about getting of drugs. I am doing this to motivate me and also it may help someone who is in a similar situation. I will also be writing up the odd tips i have been given from my counselling sessions for anxiety too.
I always knew that my last time taking drugs was going to be after the weedend away, which just went. I have already messed up so i hope now...that this is it.
Yesterday i had my counselling session (had 3 previous) and my counsellor talked about the 3 C's - Catch, Challange and Change - this is about your thoughts. Become aware of any unwanted or negative thought, catch it, challange it, notice its not good, and change the thought around for the better.
I brought up my concerns about my drinking and thinking about stopping for a while. She told me that right now my drinking, the first aspect is for my health and safty (due to previous blackouts). I have to see that blacking out is what cause alot of things that can mess up your life forever, from injury to death.
I blackout only if i drink spirits. 4 years ago i used to blackout every week until one night some serious sh*t went down and it suddenly hit me that i had to stop drinking spirits. I became a completely different person whilst on spirits. I would turn into a very violent, aggressive and abuseive person...and thats not who i am, unless pushed! Because i am not angry at anyone, i do be angry towrds myself, therefore it can lead me to injury. However, if people are trying to help me i can turn on them in seconds. After one to many messy nights, I did stop drinking spirits for a good bit, i would only have sups or shots here and there but no bottles.
But recently i went back on the spirits. You see, i have only learnt that alcoholism is progressive. So even since i took a break, it didnt help me. Progressive means it can never improve. Im only 21, and at 21 it is a very bad sign to be blacking out so much, especially for the fact it began 4 years ago. So if you are a heavy drinker and are having blackouts please dont ignore them...let it be a sign to you.
So my goal for this week is to try and not drink at all and if i do, i will NOT drink spirits no matter how tempted i am, and no drugs...
Today is friday, so i have choices to make. Do i go out and get fu*ked up, nope cant be doing that. Do i go out and get plastered, and drink all night and possibly all day tomorrow? Do i smoke joints instead of drinking? Do i sit in on my own, as usual? Those i feel right now are my options right now....and the only one i dont like, i know is the right option to pick.
I dont know yet, its still early..........but its time to get serious....
I always knew that my last time taking drugs was going to be after the weedend away, which just went. I have already messed up so i hope now...that this is it.
Yesterday i had my counselling session (had 3 previous) and my counsellor talked about the 3 C's - Catch, Challange and Change - this is about your thoughts. Become aware of any unwanted or negative thought, catch it, challange it, notice its not good, and change the thought around for the better.
I brought up my concerns about my drinking and thinking about stopping for a while. She told me that right now my drinking, the first aspect is for my health and safty (due to previous blackouts). I have to see that blacking out is what cause alot of things that can mess up your life forever, from injury to death.
I blackout only if i drink spirits. 4 years ago i used to blackout every week until one night some serious sh*t went down and it suddenly hit me that i had to stop drinking spirits. I became a completely different person whilst on spirits. I would turn into a very violent, aggressive and abuseive person...and thats not who i am, unless pushed! Because i am not angry at anyone, i do be angry towrds myself, therefore it can lead me to injury. However, if people are trying to help me i can turn on them in seconds. After one to many messy nights, I did stop drinking spirits for a good bit, i would only have sups or shots here and there but no bottles.
But recently i went back on the spirits. You see, i have only learnt that alcoholism is progressive. So even since i took a break, it didnt help me. Progressive means it can never improve. Im only 21, and at 21 it is a very bad sign to be blacking out so much, especially for the fact it began 4 years ago. So if you are a heavy drinker and are having blackouts please dont ignore them...let it be a sign to you.
So my goal for this week is to try and not drink at all and if i do, i will NOT drink spirits no matter how tempted i am, and no drugs...
Today is friday, so i have choices to make. Do i go out and get fu*ked up, nope cant be doing that. Do i go out and get plastered, and drink all night and possibly all day tomorrow? Do i smoke joints instead of drinking? Do i sit in on my own, as usual? Those i feel right now are my options right now....and the only one i dont like, i know is the right option to pick.
I dont know yet, its still early..........but its time to get serious....