Acting like a freak and don't giving a damn about it

[Klaus]

Something new and strange is happening with me, somehow I'm not thinking so much about the social failures I do.
After talking with someone and acting like a retarded, I used to spend many time regretting and feeling helplessness. Now I just think to myself: "They will have to deal with this, I don't care."

There is a guy at University that really want to be my friend, he's the only one who tries to talk with me, and today I was leaving the building and he just tried to walk faster to talk with me, and I've noticed that (social phobics always KNOW what is happening), and I walked faster than him and just rushed to my car and disappeared. And inside the car I've noticed that I was not feeling bad at all for that.

I don't know if I'm becoming a psycho, but after so many years suffering I think my mind is just tired of overthinking.

Can someone relate to this kind of post traumatic feeling?

 

[Hamelech]

Something new and strange is happening with me, somehow I'm not thinking so much about the social failures I do.
After talking with someone and acting like a retarded, I used to spend many time regretting and feeling helplessness. Now I just think to myself: "They will have to deal with this, I don't care."

I don't know if I'm becoming a psycho, but after so many years suffering I think my mind is just tired of overthinking.

 

[krs2snow]

I won't offer consolations to you b-cuz I think you deserve a pat on the back, not an empathetic shoulder. What ur'e talking about is what every person dealing with Social Anxiety hopes to find. Good for you for doing what u needed, wanted and had to do in the moment and extra Kudos for Not feeling guilty about it afterwards! Thats not psychotic of you at all! Thats dealing with and accepting ur own choices, feelings and limitations. A key to overcoming Anxiety.

 

[Klaus]

Oh, God! I'm crying now... lol

 

[Klaus]

I won't offer consolations to you b-cuz I think you deserve a pat on the back, not an empathetic shoulder. What ur'e talking about is what every person dealing with Social Anxiety hopes to find. Good for you for doing what u needed, wanted and had to do in the moment and extra Kudos for Not feeling guilty about it afterwards! Thats not psychotic of you at all! Thats dealing with and accepting ur own choices, feelings and limitations. A key to overcoming Anxiety.

Thanks a lot.

 

[***deleted***]

well thats good, I think the next step of not caring would be to know that he was speeding up to talk to you, and slowing down to let him. ; )

 

[krs2snow]

I don't think what u did deserves or calls for remorse. U didn't feel remorse in the car. Why should u now? U did what u needed to do at the time. If this person is someone u want to get to know, make it a plan for urself to make an effort next time u see them to say "Hi" or something like that. It takes many small steps to walk a mile. U're already one step ahead of the game by not feeling bad when u chose to exit a situation that made u uncomfortable. Keep moving in that direction and now start taking steps towards doing things that make u happy.

 

[LazyHermitCrab]

I guess you don't want to be his friend i did this before and sometimes feel mean but some people i can't get close with just because..

 

[Bustn Justin]

For the past while just been adopting the **** it attitude and is working for me so far.

For example when I go to the bar to hear my buddy DJ some house music, I would be the only person on the dancefloor grooving to the music. I figure everyone else is drunk anyways so they won't care.

 

[MrJones]

Good for you Klaus!

You're not a psycho, you're waaaay ahead of most of us, you should be proud of yourself! I have an "I don't care" face, but I still do care, tell me your secret

And as you already achieved this, maybe the next time you will be able to slow down and talk to him or at least let him talk lol (if you want to, of course )

 

[Klaus]

Good for you Klaus!

You're not a psycho, you're waaaay ahead of most of us, you should be proud of yourself! I have an "I don't care" face, but I still do care, tell me your secret

And as you already achieved this, maybe the next time you will be able to slow down and talk to him or at least let him talk lol (if you want to, of course )

I don't know what happened, I'm just kind of tired of overthinking, I have issues and the world will just have to deal with that. I'm out of the war zone, just want to live a little bit. I NEED PEACE.

Maybe some day I will be happy to talk with this guy from University, but today I can't and I don't want to think about that. People can call me crazy, rude etc. I just want to have a diploma and get the **** out of that doomed University FOREVER!

 

[Falkor]

Great to hear u won't be over-thinking about this afterwards and just think ''Deal with it''.
I think u got a really strong personality, every Social Phobic wants to feel free of worrying about what people think and that's the key.
Don't give a damn about what those people could possibly get in mind. Who cares right? Whatever people think, it doesn't change you.
Only if they threat you bad, but if they don't go across your border, it's fine right? I know this sounds impossible to some of you,
But if you start wondering how much it affects you, that thinking about other possible thoughts, is a way of destroying your own self respect.

We have to take care of ourself, not feel responsible of any other who is thinking the wrong way about you, because you cannot change it, you cannot take it on your shoulder and it is not your fault.

About your situation, he might feel rejected, but that is a common thing we see with Social phobic's, it's a wrong interpretation, and if u just seemed shy and anxious, he possibly could say u were just shy and not rejecting him, because u didn't put up an attitude of ignoring him.

Do u wanna be friends with this person? u should think about the reason why u ran away, is it because u were afraid of meeting him? (Sa behaviour?)
Or is it that you wanna avoid him on purpose? and what would u do if he asks you to hang out with him? what would u do? or ask u another time why u ran away so fast? u could tell him u had a meeting and was in a rush hey

The matter of thoughts, is the secret. Change ur thought patterns, that is what you just did today. It's called ''Easy thoughts'' , keep it easy, don't think difficult

!

 

[Nanita]

Today I left a friends house because all her kids started comeing home from school and another friend suddenly came over. I just said a quick bye bye to my friend and I didnt care that I didnt say good bye to the others... I really didn´t care today.... just needed to get away from all those people.