SilverSky
Active member
I'm sorry this is long, but I think out of anyone in my life, someone here is most likely to understand how I feel.
Recently I've come under a lot of pressure from my family and family in laws because I just left a respectable job. They don't know why and it's hard to say "Oh dealing with customers every day makes me want to jump off a cliff and I got panic attacks every day on the way there." My husband and I don't need extra money, so working with the constant anxiety and depression was not worth it to me. But now it looks as though I lost the respect of the family.
My In-laws are all about money and careers, that is all that matters to them. They never have tried to get to know ME, all they ask is "Where are you working? What career are you going for?" or ask nosy questions about why I left the military which was because of the constant anxiety and abuse (I was sexually assaulted twice in the military and told I wasn't allowed to tell anyone, so yeah I didn't feel safe there). My family wants me to be happy, but as outgoing people, don't understand why I am happy as a clam being in my house all day and not going out in public much.
Of course, I will try to find a career with animals or nature where I can help with money and not deal with people, I'm not a deadbeat I just want to do what is healthy for me.
So then I stumbled across this website when looking for jobs that shy people can do. I couldn't believe other people felt how I did! I have been chastised by my family and husband for not wanting to go to parties or the mall when it's crowded or for not being talkative with strangers like they are, my whole life I was made to feel like I was a reject.
I am doing something big today, I am accepting myself for who I am. I don't like to be out partying in groups of people, I don't like customer service or having to deal with people cussing me out and being rude all day just to please my in laws with a career. I am a smart person, who is happy at home with my cat and computer and gym, I'm healthy and happy and love my family. I don't need to be outgoing and force myself to be like everyone else. I've tried, over and over to put myself out there, to stick to jobs, to take the abuse. And all it did was kill me inside and make me hate people more. So I'm going to stop trying to please everyone and just be happy. Sorry for the rant! But I want to say thank you to everyone here who shares their feelings and makes me know I am not alone.
Recently I've come under a lot of pressure from my family and family in laws because I just left a respectable job. They don't know why and it's hard to say "Oh dealing with customers every day makes me want to jump off a cliff and I got panic attacks every day on the way there." My husband and I don't need extra money, so working with the constant anxiety and depression was not worth it to me. But now it looks as though I lost the respect of the family.
My In-laws are all about money and careers, that is all that matters to them. They never have tried to get to know ME, all they ask is "Where are you working? What career are you going for?" or ask nosy questions about why I left the military which was because of the constant anxiety and abuse (I was sexually assaulted twice in the military and told I wasn't allowed to tell anyone, so yeah I didn't feel safe there). My family wants me to be happy, but as outgoing people, don't understand why I am happy as a clam being in my house all day and not going out in public much.
Of course, I will try to find a career with animals or nature where I can help with money and not deal with people, I'm not a deadbeat I just want to do what is healthy for me.
So then I stumbled across this website when looking for jobs that shy people can do. I couldn't believe other people felt how I did! I have been chastised by my family and husband for not wanting to go to parties or the mall when it's crowded or for not being talkative with strangers like they are, my whole life I was made to feel like I was a reject.
I am doing something big today, I am accepting myself for who I am. I don't like to be out partying in groups of people, I don't like customer service or having to deal with people cussing me out and being rude all day just to please my in laws with a career. I am a smart person, who is happy at home with my cat and computer and gym, I'm healthy and happy and love my family. I don't need to be outgoing and force myself to be like everyone else. I've tried, over and over to put myself out there, to stick to jobs, to take the abuse. And all it did was kill me inside and make me hate people more. So I'm going to stop trying to please everyone and just be happy. Sorry for the rant! But I want to say thank you to everyone here who shares their feelings and makes me know I am not alone.
