thanks. i like myself and who i am overall but it's a pattern in my life that i am not generally well recieved. people are suspicious of me because i have bad eye contact, stumble over words, i'm quiet & awkward. i can kind of understand why people shun the odd and unusual but it's so narrowminded for 2009. i like myself despite these things and really i don't care if these people like me. it would be nice but whatever.
this post isn't really about being liked. it's about being accepted. there is a difference. i mean being accepted by peers. for employment it is not enough anymore that you work hard and hold good work ethic. there is pressure for you to be friends and if you aren't in the clique... it is very difficult.
often times coworkers talk about me behind my back because i am awkward. i caught one the other day as i was walking past! she was quietly talking to the manager and i heard him explaining, "oh no she is just the type of person who puts her head down and does her work." clearly they were talking about me, i am the only new person there they would be considering and everyone else is really outgoing! it's a small office! i get vibes that this lady is talking crap about me already the same exact way to other coworkers as i've caught her talking in hushed tones and getting suspiciously quiet as i walk past other times. why?! because i am quiet and mind my own business?! is that so bad?
SORRY SOMEONE STOLE YOUR STUPID BUNNY BOWL BUT JUST BECAUSE I AM NEW/QUIET/AWKWARD DOES NOT MEAN IT WAS ME, COCKKNOCKERBITCH. HAVE YOU THOUGHT IT COULD BE ONE OF THE 382746 PATIENTS WHO COME THROUGH THE OFFICE?
somehow being quiet and awkward makes you guilty of somthing bad. people can't just ACCEPT that some people are painfully shy and introverted and get over it. there's always at least one person hung up on the fact that you are quiet and they start talking about you to others just because they can't figure you out. it's like they always have their eye on you, looking for any clue so they can figure you out. it creates such tension. i don't care if they LIKE me, i care if they ACCEPT me as a quiet person and respect me just as any other woworker.
I AM QUIET AND AWKWARD GET OVER IT!!!! that is what i want to say.
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Well exchange my words of being liked and acceptance, they may be slightly different but the same rules apply.
You do not need to be accepted by people, just like people don't need to be accepted by you. You have the right to be yourself and live life how you wish to be, just like everyone else. If people don't like you for who and how you are so what? The people who do not 'accept' people for no good reason are almost always have no class, low intelligence, nasty natured, insensitive, etc. Those people really are not worth bothering with, but they have the right to be themselves and think the way they do, just like you have the right to be yourself.
It doesn't matter if someone cannot accept you for how you are, but that is not for you to worry about or feel bad about or be self conscious about. How that person's mind works is not your problem, it their problem that they are narrow minded. But you don't need to worry about people like that, they don't care less about you, they don't accept you, so why waste energy worrying about them. As for anyone who is not judging you negatively, then you don't need to worry what they think. So worrying about people accepting you is just totally pointless.
If you are to overcome this problem you need to not be hurt or bothered whether people accept you or not. You need to stop placing importance and emphasis on the people around you and focus on being the person you are and want to be. You have to step out of this mindset that you believe it is important to be accepted!
