Terrified to leave the house...

My boyfriend just recently got a new apartment with no wall and the front of it is all windows. He has net curtains but it still feels as if people outside would be able to see me. He's currently at work and I feel as if my hearts going to pop out of my chest right now, because as usual there's a group of teenagers outside the apartment- and by outside, i mean leaning against the door. I don't know if they know someone's living here but i can't go out and tell them to **** off because they'll insult or attack me. I can't call the cops cause they'll give him hell in the future and probably break the windows.. I'm sick of starving myself and locking myself into his room in fear of them staring in at me. I don't even know why i'm posting this... Guess i just need to vent... Maybe if it wasn't for SA I might actually be able to leave the house... :-(

i know how you feel.
that would be REALLY uncomfortable to have someone leaning on your door. i would be so temtped to throw a hard object through the glass. hopefully you can find something to distract yourself, and if the teenagers are just being annoying and stupid, they will eventually get bored an leave and find something else to do... but if its like a day day out thing, let the apartment manager know.
i've lived in apartments before, and having a shared back yard always sucked, but i realized that whether or not i go into the kitchen only effects me- and the people outside will act the same whether i go into the kitchen or not.
and yeah you have every right to yell at them- it's your property.
and if they are staring at you, like a peeping tom looking through the glass, you have every right to call the cops- they may make a comment if you yell at them, they may not, they may just leave. maybe if you turn on like a tv loud enough they'll leave? (sory im really passive aggressive, thats probably what id do.)
and if they try to attack or threaten you, call the cops don't hesitate on that. it's hard, there's no two ways about it when dealing with the anxiety when your thoughs won't stop focusing on one thing. hang in there!

You know what trigger's my anixety more than anything?....Gangs of teenagers! There's something really intimidating about them, i mean when i walk past them i expect them to shout abuse or something. I wish they wouldn't gather around street corners so much!

I feel you.

Why not put some relaxing music on and try to focus on something else, perhaps do some breathing exercises and try to forget about whos outside.

Put some rotten fish outside your door, hidden in the bushes, that or it'll be good to get your hands on those sonar things that only people like under 25 can hear.

I'm way too intimidated by them. They're outside again and i can't even walk into that room. I know how ya feel recluse cos thats the main reason it bothers me. That, and the fact if they start on my bf i won't know what to do... I'd love to set traps or something- but that costs money and all. I ****ing hate this!

recluse said:

You know what trigger's my anixety more than anything?....Gangs of teenagers! There's something really intimidating about them, i mean when i walk past them i expect them to shout abuse or something. I wish they wouldn't gather around street corners so much!

I feel you.

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I agree, gangs of teens are very annoying.. I feel so uncomfortable when I pass in front of them.. there must be a way to win this "fear"

is there a back door you can use?