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    Post your random thoughts/feelings etc

    Well done on taking action to change your appearance to feel happier - I kinda need to do that but time is not on my side with commitments. Hopefully this change gives you that little bit of confidence to take steps in a social environment.
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    As much as you try to ignore what people's perceptions may be of you, and thinking about it, I can't actually put it to the back of my mind. Especially when people behave oddly or different with you than to others. Then you feel vindicated because you think "yeah, you guys are talking about me I...
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    How are you feeling?

    Lonely at work. One friend is lovely but the alienation from others, especially when they are all together, is disappointing. It's like I'm here guys, won't kill you to say something rather than expect me to jump out at every fricking conversation.
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    How are you feeling?

    Thank you. Since then, I've not had any response to anything. It has been anxiety to panic at the sight of a door closing outside, or people knocking on the door. My heart nearly fell upon seeing what I thought was an individual in uniform - it turned out to be grocery shopping and the guy...
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    How are you feeling?

    I prepared a presentation to my work's board. Spent time devising the approach (trying to make the first part light hearted to relax me then go into the details of my role) and delivered it only for a really poor, and underwhelming response. I though felt my heart was beating more quickly, few...
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    How are you feeling?

    Fearful, dejected, angry, and upset. The thing I feared the most, happened and I did nothing to change it in that moment. I'll be amazed if the cops aren't around soon - in a busy car park, with cars behind me, I tried to front park into a bay. I knew it would be tight, the angles weren't...
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    How are you feeling?

    I'm so glad I'm not in the office for a few days. I can't handle the isolation, the snideness of some people, the lack of consequences for some people simply because they are extroverted blowhards who laugh or joke their way out of trouble, people who can't be polite and friendly. And more...
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    I had to undergo work training involved practical tasks in front of other people and I didn't nail it, admittedly and I just felt awkward being centre of attention. And a day listening to a manager trying to be "down with the kids" with his banter, and seemingly engaging with everyone but me...
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    Post what you cannot say

    So yeah, what a surprise this hasn't changed. It doesn't help working with people immature, and over their heads, combined with willing and unnecessary support from people above than actual criticism or condemnation.
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    How are you feeling?

    Isolated. Other people don't notice the 'slights' I feel from other people at work - that's what being anxious does I presume. I wanted to start 2020 with positivity in my behaviour at work, but now 22 days in, I'm inclined to sit in my office and not bother with any of them minus one good...
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    Visiting places that give anxiety

    Just an update that the next visit was fairly straightforward, he was busy as you would expect but engaged in conversation to discuss the issue i.e. to find the correct part for my car. I tried to keep him informed by calling the next day to say aforementioned part was not suitable but hopefully...
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    Visiting places that give anxiety

    Ideally, yes. However my school report as a kid said I struggled to ask for help and that has endured. I just fear the roll eyes reaction of family members and friends to say if they can accompany me. Part of me wants to handle it on my own, yet I worry about making an error or getting ripped...
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    Visiting places that give anxiety

    I no jack all about cars and maintaining a car and having to know what all that entails gives me great anxiety. This leads to anxiety on visiting a garage to discuss a repair with someone who is more knowledgeable but also at times he can be quite blunt and unapproachable. I take it to this...
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    How are you feeling?

    Uncommunicative, uncaring and actually keen to get back to the office next week, which considering I'm not too enthused by keeping company with people at work, that says volumes. Sometimes doing the aforementioned means I don't do the things that give me anxiety (driving mainly) but results in...
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    Some people really do make a huge drama out of every thing in a professional environment - one example of miscommunication, and everyone turns into schoolkids waiting to tell the teacher breathlessly about what happened, thus leading to an item agenda on the team meeting that I would say will be...
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    How are you feeling?

    Yup, still making a fool of myself at the petrol pump station. It would be good to turn the cap counter-clockwise and waste a few minutes fruitlessly turning to the annoying click sound, then driving off embarrassed and in a mood thus ruining family time. (I did do it successfully a few days later)
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    So, you agree with your boss what your role entails and you say you don't want to do any other tasks that put me out of my comfort zone (prefer being an office geek and away from people!). So, unbeknown to you, you are "invited" to attend an event by a colleague that you haven't attended in the...
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    To be fair, that happens with another colleague who sits in the main area. I, however, sit in an office right next to the aforementioned space.
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    Background Hello? Hello? Hello?! Yes, I'm here. You can engage me in conversation or do you expect me to keep my ears open and come out like a peeping Tom to join in, and subsequently be ignored anyway because I'm different to you or don't have the same social background And it's damn...
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