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    Tired of being ignored for the extroverted

    In regards to my relatives, I think it's they see me as uninteresting, boring and not the out-going person who can wine and dine them filled with levity so why bother offering pleasantries? Sometimes I do want to be alone, but in other settings when we have familial gatherings just a simply...
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    Tired of being ignored for the extroverted

    Man, I'm so tired of decades of being ignored by cousins and family friends for the extroverted, in this case, my brother. He's so extroverted, confident, fearless that he is so, so good at creating, developing and maintaining relationships with our family networks. Even people who are my...
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    How are you feeling?

    I hate what my anxiety makes me become as a person, father, brother, son and uncle. Once I hit a dark spiral, I just want to be alone. That then makes me very uncaring and unworthy of any love I think, which would be rightly so. I've tried - and am trying - to undertake a religious effort to...
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    How are you feeling?

    Demoralised. My colleague, who is around 20 years of age, is leaving for a new job soon with a salary that isn't far off mine. I'm 34 and have been in my role for six years. I want to earn more (not because I'm struggling financially) but I feel a sense of injustice that BAME are paid less...
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    Post your random thoughts/feelings etc

    I wish I wouldn't have to take slow steps of forgiveness, or a return to normality in personal relationships, as that would mean I had a handle on my anxiety. If it hadn't been my wife's birthday I don't know whether I would have had the courage to speak or change my behaviour but I think had I...
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    Post your random thoughts/feelings etc

    I don't know when I became a stone-hearted individual. I think with my anxiety giving off arrogant and stand-offish vibes I think I've become more prone to becoming unemphathetic and unsympathetic. I find it difficult to cry compared to when I was younger.
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    How are you feeling?

    I'm feeling awful wondering how undeserving, and unworthy I am to be a husband, and a father considering how uncaring I've been on both fronts this week. Working from home was exciting at the start, but at times, I miss my office and the routine of going to work. That mood has seaped into my...
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    What do you do to help move on from anxiety episodes?

    Hi, My wife and children have bore the brunt of anxiety episodes, including my mood swings, and previously we talked about writing my emotions down after an episode that might help her understand as I find it impossible to talk about it to share and move on. That hasn't happened, it takes 2-3...
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    How are you feeling?

    Back low again - ultimately it's anxiety derailing my days when faced with doing certain tasks that in my gut I don't want to do, but I kinda end up forcing myself to do it for other people and I go into it with a dark mood that doesn't change throughout that activity. Then as expected, mistakes...
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    How are you feeling?

    Thank you for that article and subsequent links within it - already reading it gave me focus to try and implement this. I don't know if I can schedule time every day for a specific time but I'm going to try to. I've probably read some aspects to it before (definitely heard the three things to be...
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    Post your random thoughts/feelings etc

    I wish there was someone who could truly understand my anxiety issues. My wife, has listened as I've tried to explain all the reasons why we don't do things compared to other couples and how we raise our children, yet I think deep down she still feels I've got to do it without fail. Sometimes...
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    How are you feeling?

    It has been two years since I'd say I've started to drive again after a period of a decade of not driving, or driving less frequently. I don't think I'm at a stage where I can drive in a calm state of mind - even taking a short journey gives me anxiety, thinking about every situation that may...
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    How are you feeling?

    In the last four years, I don't think I've ever enjoyed time off work. Normally, when you have a week away from the office (or your kitchen table atm) you feel excited and have plans in-store or things to do. I've had trepidation and anxiety, worrying about how the week will unfold taking my...
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    Do you have bad memory loss?

    I've felt that my memory weakness stems from my anxiety and I'm keen to know if there are studies go prove this. My long term memory is fine - I can recollect family memories when I was a kid and school and educational years. But I've found whenever I'm anxious for a situation and I go through...
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    Conjuring Up Bad Scenarios That Haven't Happened

    I think I do it for every task that gives me anxiety. The absolute worst case scenario which sometimes - frighteningly - goes into fatalistic thoughts for myself and the people around me. I don't think I can ever get rid of this process, it's become engrained in me sadly.
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    How are you feeling?

    Fucking awful. Trying to take proactive steps to deal with my anxiety is like the saying a boxer has his plans before he gets punched in the face. I have my plans (using my faith for inner contentment) then a bad day resulting in anxiety ratched up then having embarrassing outcomes means I get...
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    Post your random thoughts/feelings etc

    For the last 2/3 weeks, since the lockdown began, I've felt the need to try religious spiritualism as I just don't know what else to do. I'm not perfect at following religious prayers regularly, but I'm trying to pray through the anxiety (a term I've coined) when I have a setback (like I did...
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    Getting your hair cut

    Rest assured, the latter part of my post was relevant around a decade ago but now, I'm boring and keep it simple - ha!
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    Getting your hair cut

    I try not to go regularly, although this ends up making my hair big and not overly presentable but hey, I'm 33 and past caring too much. When I do, I go to a barber that's nearby and the ladies are fairly friendly and with one of them I've got an excellent rapport. I pay more than the average...
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    Post what you cannot say

    When something happens more than once, you start to think there's something intentional about it. I sit nearby from the main team, on person on the odd occasion, goes to the nearby shop for snacks and drinks. Very rarely does she pop her head through my door (and again, I'm not far away) to say...
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