dannyboy65
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For a while now I was in a rut. I was feeling hopeless and wanted to die. I felt like I didn't matter to people and the ones I did matter too I didn't think I did. But today I had a huge eye opener. Today was my second last day at the senior home and I told the seniors that I was leaving. It breaks my heart that I have to leave cause I really care for all of them, it feels like they are all my friends. Well I never had so many people tell me how much they would miss me and how much I mean to them. For once people made me feel like I meant something. I know just from all of them that I actually made a different in their lives, something not many people can say they have done.
Then there is one last guy, and I think he is a true best friend. Although he can't speak, he has shown me what an amazing person he is. Him having heavy autism and me being able to help him and be his friend is all I could ask for. He likes to goof around with me and give me hugs (It's his own way of showing he cares and trusts you). But I think the biggest thing that has made me feel amazing was when we were sitting on the bus and he got tired so he put his head on my shoulder. Yes 2 grown men doing this would be weird. But with him I know he is innocent he doesn't have any sexual desire for me. The workers in fact told me if he does that it means you mean the world to him. That right there is why I love what I do.
I know now that I am worth something. If I feel like shit I just have to remember I have people that see me as the greatest friend and I want to be that friend for them.
Then there is one last guy, and I think he is a true best friend. Although he can't speak, he has shown me what an amazing person he is. Him having heavy autism and me being able to help him and be his friend is all I could ask for. He likes to goof around with me and give me hugs (It's his own way of showing he cares and trusts you). But I think the biggest thing that has made me feel amazing was when we were sitting on the bus and he got tired so he put his head on my shoulder. Yes 2 grown men doing this would be weird. But with him I know he is innocent he doesn't have any sexual desire for me. The workers in fact told me if he does that it means you mean the world to him. That right there is why I love what I do.
I know now that I am worth something. If I feel like shit I just have to remember I have people that see me as the greatest friend and I want to be that friend for them.
Well, mainly because you owe me money but that's not the point...