My life feels empty.

Literally. Empty. And I'm only 16.
I tell people I'm into art... Yet I havent actually tried my hand at it since that elective art class I took last year.. Plus random doodles in summer school.
But the truth is I think I'm terrible and will never improve. So I havent in a while.

I think I have yet another sleeping disorder; as I sleep at around 5 or 6am, till like 2 - 4PM. When I wake up my day is mostly full of going online (to go on here + Gaia + sometimes Tetris; one of the few things I enjoy, listen to music, and possibly talk to a friend or two I made online.) After that I rotate to watching whatever my sister is watching, eating, or playing games. Also texting a friend who I like who'll probly never want to hook up with me.

I have **** social skills. Try to avoid any kind of contact, mostly (besides a couple friends I have). e.g. when I go for a walk I try to take a route where it's most likely I won't bump into anyone at all. Or I just sit in isolation in my room, waiting for night to come so I can go back on here.

Again, I feel like I don't enjoy anything besides geeky stuff. I barely make any contact besides with my family. Who I hate. Especially my dad.

I just feel like I'll never be content.. And that each day is full of isolation... Emptiness... Boredom... And my family being strict doesnt help at all.

Welcome to the club. I was only 13 when I stared feeling empty.

But really you'll be fine. FYI, geeky stuff correlates to cool stuff as you get older. Embrace who you are and you'll be embraced in return.

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I think I have yet another sleeping disorder; as I sleep at around 5 or 6am, till like 2 - 4PM. When I wake up my day is mostly full of going online (to go on here + Gaia + sometimes Tetris; one of the few things I enjoy, listen to music, and possibly talk to a friend or two I made online.) After that I rotate to watching whatever my sister is watching, eating, or playing games.

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Perhaps this may be strange, but do you find that you feel 'dazed' day to day? I've slipped into a somewhat similar schedule during summer breaks and my ability to concentrate and desire to do anything significantly decreased. Do you get much exercise during the day?

HeadFace said:

... I feel like I don't enjoy anything besides geeky stuff. I barely make any contact besides with my family. Who I hate. Especially my dad.

I just feel like I'll never be content.. And that each day is full of isolation... Emptiness... Boredom... And my family being strict doesnt help at all.

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Geeky stuff?

Contact I can make. No one really knows truth.

Content: Desiring no more than what one has; satisfied.

You'll find here that isolation, emptiness and boredom are plentiful. Feel free to share your thoughts.

My family, dare not share a thing. Feelings, what feelings? A sign of weakness.

I find that physical activity, even something like cleaning my room can sometimes lessen the sense of emptiness...

I understand=/ Im not going shove my story onto the table. That would be boring.
Though I agree with Dronee, try to find new things that you might enjoy or already enjoying like joining a sports club taking up yoga, swimming or jogging? Those are the things I find helps. I was really confused at your age too, I hardly knew what my interests were (this makes me feel old.lol)

A journey is life, go and discover things around you, although I know sa can put a hurdle on a lot things. Remember, this emptiness is temporary every thing changes, no one moment is the same=)

I really hope you can find yourself, and I am so sure as you grow older each year you will move forward, and come to understand more about yourself. I hate to say this to myself too, but facing the fear is the only way. Take a step at a time, never throw yourself into a situation you are absolutely terrified of but work up a hierarchy, at least that's what I find helpful.

I wish I could say great things that would make everything be alright but I can't. But I think you should try an artclass again. You would get out more and even if you suck at drawing atleast you think it's fun. Hope everything will be alright for you and everyone else.

A couple things to consider...

º Mankind is living in "The Age of Boredom". In spite of new technology (eg internet) we are more bored now than ever in human history. We are more isolated, no longer living in "village groups". We barely even know our neighbours. We constantly strive for "diversions" to take our minds off this boredom/empitiness. It is a necessary stage for mankind to go through

º Emptiness is having a lack of "meaning" in one's life, and meaning is something that comes entierly from within

Hey guys.
Just to let you know this is quite old, and even though my days aren't exactly "funfilled" or busy, it's gotten a bit better. Thanks for the advice though, I'll keep it all in mind

you don't have to be good at something to be "into" it i'm into designer shoes but i don't have one single pair, ha... i'm into art as well, but i haven't picked up my sketchbook in probably a year.. meh... it's fine to have random interests, and it's fine to like geeky things

I'm really sorry you feel that way
Just know that your NOT alone.
Also why don't you just practise your art skills and develop them.. After all
Practise makes perfect!
I hope things go well for you <3
Message me if you'd like.

I'm aloooot like you. My day:

-wake up at 3-4am
-go online
-do the mourning routine (shower, eat, dog)
-go back online


SCHOOL, then i get home and:

-go back online
-maybe go out to a book store or a coffee shop
-go back online
-eat
-maybe txt a couple freinds i made in texas who im pretty much done with
-sleep at 8-9pm


will talk about it later, gotta go to lunch,