Recent content by SelfHater

Most of the time I feel nothing but some type of negative emotion. Developed agoraphobia a few years ago so bad I could not leave my room. I just became somewhat hopeful lately getting some confidence again. Anyways I am now bored out of my mind. Frustrated because after years of fighting...

I think being with people that try to change your personality or make you feel guilty for who you are is much worse than being alone. So often we attract people with our personifies and then they want to change us. I know that I no longer recognize myself. Everything I loved got taken away...

My wife has her own issues about intimacy and got her own room in the house over 10 years ago. Truth is when I was getting my hair cut that was the most physical contact I would have with a human. I hated getting it done so I would get it cut very short and go every 6 to 8 months. It always...

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I have always been high anxiety and hated being social but I managed it. I got things done regardless of my feelings. Years ago I got my first panic attack. Last year about this time I had a major attack doing something that I loved. I loved going for long walks at 2a.m. Something about the...

Ever since elementary school I would get headaches or a migraine almost every day I spent in class. After I graduated I went to a college that had different lighting and I did not get headaches. This was 20 years ago. I always thought it was the fluorescent lighting that did this. If you do...

How is your long term memory? When I talk to old friends they are always amazed about what I remember about them. I actually limit what I say to them about details I remember because I am afraid it will freak them out. They think it is a gift. Of course though I remember every freaking...

Back in my worst days the internet was not yet around. I cant help but to think that if I could have accessed a site like this how much help that would have been for me. How ever with all the fake stuff like Facebook would have it been worst? Do you guys think it is better now or years ago?

I am not sure of much recently. I thought I had this SAD thing kicked somewhat. In My high school days I had the typical problems that I see from other posts,dating, jerks ect. School absolutely almost killed me though, it was the worst time of my life. After school things got a lot...