Recent content by Rick7348

My former next door neighbor's birthday was March 20 (3/20). For some reason if the time is 3:20, or a minute before that or even a minute after that, I can't do anything at that time. The number 20 is bad. The number 19 is bad because it's right next to the number 20. If I look at the clock...

I have an ocd problem with cigarettes. If I smoke a cigarette and then think the wrong thought, like something violent immediately after I smoke a cigarette, then I tell myself I have to immediately smoke another one. Or if I listen to the "wrong song." Or think the "wrong thing," I tell...

I want to stop smoking but because of my OCD I can't. If I smoke a cigarette and on the last puff I think of a violent thought, then I immediately have to smoke another cigarette where I think of something non-violent. I smoke about a half a pack a day because I get caught up in these rituals...

I went to buy a pack of cigarettes yesterday and on the way there I bit my fingernails. I wanted that pack to be the last pack I ever bought and quit smoking but because I bit my fingernails, I tell myself I have to go back to the same store, only this time not bite my fingernails and then I...

I took a quick bath at 5:23 pm. After that I immediately went outside to smoke a cigarette and came back in the house and it was 5:37 pm which is 14 minutes later. I associate certain numbers with certain things. For some reason I decided that the number 14 is bad. I don't know why but it is...

I have OCD obviously. I wanted my last cigarette to be the one I smoked yesterday, but because I didn't smoke it at the "right time," I told myself I had to buy another pack of cigarettes. When I say right time I mean not early in the morning. For some reason I tell myself that it's bad luck...

Can someone give me some advice on a way to stop thinking about my OCD?

I turned on my radio today at around 7:15 to listen to the Howard Stern show and the first words I heard during an interview was "light myself on fire," which obviously is a very awful thing. Now I tell myself I have to do a ritual where I turn the radio on tomorrow at around the same time in...

I went to the store to buy "YooHoo" There was a guy holding a girl on top of his shoulders that I was standing behind. I thought to myself that it was dangerous. So I told myself I had to go back to the same grocery store and buy the same product behind a guy who wasn't holding somebody on...

Every time I take one step up in completing a ritual, some outside source causes me to take two steps back. I won't bother going into the specifics but can someone give me some advice as to how to NOT continue doing these rituals. I know their stupid, I know their pointless and I know it's not...

Does anyone here have such embarrassing ocd thoughts that you can't even bring yourself to tell it to anybody. I'm in that situation right now. I basically just want some advice on how to get over the ridiculous nagging thoughts that make no sense and that bother me. How do you personally...

Yesterday I was driving and I pulled up to a 4 way stop. A man got out of his car and yelled at me saying I was riding his bumper. He said he had 3 kids in the car and said something along the lines of punching me through the glass and he told me not to do it again. I apologized and nearly...

I watched a movie yesterday called Afghan Star. There was a blind boy in the beginning of the movie that was blind and it was disturbing to see. I'm going to the movies on Friday, but I feel compelled to watch another movie before Friday, one that isn't as disturbing as Afghan Star. I'm...

I downloaded a movie off the internet. When it began downloading, the words "sexual assault" was said on the tv in the other room. Because that's such an awful thing, I told myself I had to download the movie again which I did and the words "accused" was said on the tv in the other room. I...

For some reason I've got it in my mind that I have to download one more movie from 2009 and watch it. If I get some sick thought in my mind while watching a movie, I feel like I have to download another. But I always have sick and disturbing thoughts coming through my mind, so it's a cycle...