flu/bad cold and bad weather can really suck inspiration for life out of a person.. just remember it's the flu/being sick... you'll feel TONS better when it's over!!
You're young, smart, intelligent - you have so many things still ahead of you!!
PS I didn't ask u if you were okay cause it seemed that you weren't.. Hope somebody cooks you some chicken soup or some herbal tea!! Did/do you have temperature &have you seen a doctor?
Even though you feel sucky now, things can get better.. Some very great people, even Mother Theresa had black moments.. So just hang in there.. Whoa, do you live in Egypt? That is soo awesome...