Intrusive Thoughts

Hi I am new and this is my first post. I just want to know if anyone else has these similar thoughts.

When I was younger I'd have obsessions with touching things with both hands so my body felt even. Also counting things and everything had to be even numbers, as well as clock watching. These seemed to have eased but now I get thoughts in my head and I can't let them pass without finding the answer.

I've told my boyfriend about it and he's really understanding. I will get these thoughts in my head about him or his past (and they're totally irrelevant or illogical) and they will upset and bother me until I can ask him about it. I will imagine things that aren't even true and need to constantly ask him about them for reassurance. Although getting an answer only gives me temporary relief. Like the other day I felt relieved after a question and realised I didn't have anything else to worry about. So I worried about when the next question was going to come along. So I thought and thought and thought until I had a new one. This takes my attention all day long or more and makes me feel really down, until I can ask him. It's like I can't allow myself to be worry-free.

Sometimes I'll disguise my questions in conversation, other times I'll just say "oh I've got another one of my OCD questions". It's just that these questions in my head are ruining my day/s, I don't want to have them. But when I don't have any I make myself think of something and it's getting worse. I feel like it's doing my head in.

exactly the same things.. the checking and touching stuff has also eased.. and I use to always have to ask my mom for reassurance.. but it has mostly stopped

While my OCD symptoms may differ from yours I still suffer from OCD as well. I know what your going through.

Welcome to SPW!

I don't have OCD, but I do suffer with intrusive thoughts at times & know how that can be.

I, too, suffer from OCD. My symptoms are rather different than yours, but it's OCD all the same. I hope this forum can offer some help for you. Welcome.

Completley normal for OCD.

I know exactly what you mean....with the even stuff......If I blink one eye I have to blink the other to make it "even" if I step with one foot I have to step with the other to make it "even," and yes I have intrusive thoughts....I can't sleep at night because of it, like imagining/fantasizing different scenarios in my head that aren't real.

Thanks everyone who replied. It gives me comfort to know I am not the only one dealing with these things.

If I do something with one hand I have to do it with the other, even if it hurts. I think all humans suffer from some sort of OCD.