tooshytosay
Well-known member
Sigh, I don't know.
I don't think I really have SA - I don't really feel classical "anxiety" as such, I feel like I just lack social skills, and any anxiety just stems from my past bad experiences due to bad social skills.
I've thought about Asperger's - whilst the social awkwardness part fits me, the other parts don't. I don't obsess over anything as such, I know what facial expressions mean, I have empathy.... well yes I know all these in theory, but in practice I'm just so... shy.
Have you heard of Avoidant Personality Disorder? (AvPD). Well this seemed to describe me quite well, but then again not many people seem to have this diagnosis - far less than SA / Aspergers. So I'm not sure, it seems to be quite an obscure diagnosis.
It's funny. I actually WANT a label to describe who I am, whereas many people seem to be like "hey, don't label me". It's just that I feel too different and out-of-sync with this world. Like I'm inhuman. So I just want a label to explain why I'm so different. Something that'll make me go "ahhhh... that explains everything". I'm getting sick of being so "unique", not fitting into this or that.
Yet paradoxically, I'm afraid of actually going to see a Dr / psychologist etc. I'm afraid that they'll diagnose me with nothing at all (that I am indeed just an "oddball"), or that they won't truly "get" me/understand me, so diagnose me with something wrong / not-quite-right. So yeah, I'm at an ambivalence here, I want a diagnosis, yet I am afraid to actually go and ask for one.
I don't think I really have SA - I don't really feel classical "anxiety" as such, I feel like I just lack social skills, and any anxiety just stems from my past bad experiences due to bad social skills.
I've thought about Asperger's - whilst the social awkwardness part fits me, the other parts don't. I don't obsess over anything as such, I know what facial expressions mean, I have empathy.... well yes I know all these in theory, but in practice I'm just so... shy.
Have you heard of Avoidant Personality Disorder? (AvPD). Well this seemed to describe me quite well, but then again not many people seem to have this diagnosis - far less than SA / Aspergers. So I'm not sure, it seems to be quite an obscure diagnosis.
It's funny. I actually WANT a label to describe who I am, whereas many people seem to be like "hey, don't label me". It's just that I feel too different and out-of-sync with this world. Like I'm inhuman. So I just want a label to explain why I'm so different. Something that'll make me go "ahhhh... that explains everything". I'm getting sick of being so "unique", not fitting into this or that.
Yet paradoxically, I'm afraid of actually going to see a Dr / psychologist etc. I'm afraid that they'll diagnose me with nothing at all (that I am indeed just an "oddball"), or that they won't truly "get" me/understand me, so diagnose me with something wrong / not-quite-right. So yeah, I'm at an ambivalence here, I want a diagnosis, yet I am afraid to actually go and ask for one.