I'm Jenn, 32 years old and I've had social phobias my entire life. I feel out of place in large or small gatherings, I usually just end up staring off into space avoiding all eye contact. In college it took me 2 years to become friends with my classmates I saw on a daily basis. Since graduation they've all remained great friends and I hardly hear from them.
I've been living in the same area for 4 years and I've only made 2 friends, a 66 year old woman and her 76 year old husband. I sufffer from chronic pain and can't work so my range of possible interaction with others is even smaller. When my phone rings I become so anxious I let it go to voicemail, if I don't recognize the number I Google it then decide what to do. I generally avoid being around the public as much as possible to avoid the sweaty palms, dizzy headache and short breaths I get when I do go out.
My biggest issue right now is the loneliness and intense sadness. People have been making jokes about the costs of weddings and "how lucky" I am not to have to spend it. Or if we walk by badly behaved children it's "wow Jenn! Aren't you glad you aren't going to ever deal with that?" Then I go home and cry because I would love to get married and have kids! The few dates I've been on end with the guy telling me I'm too bitchy or snobby when really I'm just terrified. One boyfriends family told him they didn't care how sweet I was or how well educated, they didn't like me because I'm too quiet, so he broke it off.
I'm terrified of social interaction but I'd kill for some friends! The only best friend I've ever had is my dog. It's nice to know that maybe I can interact with people on here without all the anxiety
Thanks everyone!
I've been living in the same area for 4 years and I've only made 2 friends, a 66 year old woman and her 76 year old husband. I sufffer from chronic pain and can't work so my range of possible interaction with others is even smaller. When my phone rings I become so anxious I let it go to voicemail, if I don't recognize the number I Google it then decide what to do. I generally avoid being around the public as much as possible to avoid the sweaty palms, dizzy headache and short breaths I get when I do go out.
My biggest issue right now is the loneliness and intense sadness. People have been making jokes about the costs of weddings and "how lucky" I am not to have to spend it. Or if we walk by badly behaved children it's "wow Jenn! Aren't you glad you aren't going to ever deal with that?" Then I go home and cry because I would love to get married and have kids! The few dates I've been on end with the guy telling me I'm too bitchy or snobby when really I'm just terrified. One boyfriends family told him they didn't care how sweet I was or how well educated, they didn't like me because I'm too quiet, so he broke it off.
I'm terrified of social interaction but I'd kill for some friends! The only best friend I've ever had is my dog. It's nice to know that maybe I can interact with people on here without all the anxiety
Thanks everyone!
