diesel
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thought i best introduce myself .... im 19 and joined this site in order to find information really .
im not sure if im depressed or what ... i have no want to live but strangely enough i dont feel upset about it . i am a very good actor as everyone around me thinks im strong but im not really . i have an extremely open mind with no boundaries ... i feel like sometimes i think and imagine things which no-one else could ever comprehend . i look at things different to everyone else but because im two different people this side of me is hidden - i refer to it as the REAL me . i feel when i listen to music and let my mind escape ...
im currently in college which was a mistake as i hate structured learning with books , lectures and the sort - it just doesnt work for me . i dont want a normal life as i feel for me a normal life is a waste and i would be better off not living it . im not suicidal either but im not afraid of death itself .
in joining this site i hope to come to understand why im so different , believe me what i wrote is nothing compared to what goes on inside my mind .
thanks
im not sure if im depressed or what ... i have no want to live but strangely enough i dont feel upset about it . i am a very good actor as everyone around me thinks im strong but im not really . i have an extremely open mind with no boundaries ... i feel like sometimes i think and imagine things which no-one else could ever comprehend . i look at things different to everyone else but because im two different people this side of me is hidden - i refer to it as the REAL me . i feel when i listen to music and let my mind escape ...
im currently in college which was a mistake as i hate structured learning with books , lectures and the sort - it just doesnt work for me . i dont want a normal life as i feel for me a normal life is a waste and i would be better off not living it . im not suicidal either but im not afraid of death itself .
in joining this site i hope to come to understand why im so different , believe me what i wrote is nothing compared to what goes on inside my mind .
thanks
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