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So, all you unique people out there... What has it been like to grow up being different to everyone else?
Me as a below average looking Asian growing up in a english speaking country is probably the reason why i have social anxiety today. Primary school and intermediate wasn't too bad, except for the occasional racial insult. I lost my father when i was young. The first few years of high school was fun. However the last 2 years was probably when my social anxiety got pretty severe.
During these last 2 years, I got my first job as a supermarket assistant. I got to taste a glance of the real world. My god working there was probably one of the most terrifying experiences I have ever faced. All my workmates were kind to me, but I would always get blatant insults about my race and my typical asian features from the occasional customer. I can remember alot of the insults, hmm one of them, "They must not be making any money here" *points at me*. Its like they did not want me to work. I know there were alot of kind customers but the constant abuse was forcing me to quit. I couldn't take it anymore, so i left. So much for "It gets better after high school".
I am now in college where its even worse because of my anxiety. I have grown into a habbit of always looking down and my face is stuck in angry mode 24/7 lol. I always get that occasional laugh, i dont know if its at me tho because im a pretty massive (6 foot 5). I always stay out of social situations and never talk to close friends from highschool anymore. Life has been pretty difficult as my mum had to look after the kids all by her self. I guess alot of things could have contributed towards my anxiety other than racism. There you go, a summary of my life.
Me as a below average looking Asian growing up in a english speaking country is probably the reason why i have social anxiety today. Primary school and intermediate wasn't too bad, except for the occasional racial insult. I lost my father when i was young. The first few years of high school was fun. However the last 2 years was probably when my social anxiety got pretty severe.
During these last 2 years, I got my first job as a supermarket assistant. I got to taste a glance of the real world. My god working there was probably one of the most terrifying experiences I have ever faced. All my workmates were kind to me, but I would always get blatant insults about my race and my typical asian features from the occasional customer. I can remember alot of the insults, hmm one of them, "They must not be making any money here" *points at me*. Its like they did not want me to work. I know there were alot of kind customers but the constant abuse was forcing me to quit. I couldn't take it anymore, so i left. So much for "It gets better after high school".
I am now in college where its even worse because of my anxiety. I have grown into a habbit of always looking down and my face is stuck in angry mode 24/7 lol. I always get that occasional laugh, i dont know if its at me tho because im a pretty massive (6 foot 5). I always stay out of social situations and never talk to close friends from highschool anymore. Life has been pretty difficult as my mum had to look after the kids all by her self. I guess alot of things could have contributed towards my anxiety other than racism. There you go, a summary of my life.