Something new to scare me

[jryden]

So I've mentioned that I've been looking for a job. And as we all know, with SA, panic disorders, this becomes a million times harder. Last night, I went to bed, couldnt even sleep because I am so worried about finding a job. (I'm starting to think my SA is worse than I thought it was)
I had a mini panic attack after thinking about lunch at work. I had flashbacks of lunch in middle school and high school. I either sat alone or with the few friends I had and even then, I didnt want to be there.
If I do get a job and it happens to be an office job (I'm trying ot stay away from office jobs but I cant be picky), I am so worried about lunch with coworkers. I can leave and go somewhere but what if they invite me one day.

I am jumping way ahead of myself but this is me everyday. Panicking about things that arent a big deal to most.

 

[Falkor]

So I've mentioned that I've been looking for a job. And as we all know, with SA, panic disorders, this becomes a million times harder. Last night, I went to bed, couldnt even sleep because I am so worried about finding a job. (I'm starting to think my SA is worse than I thought it was)
I had a mini panic attack after thinking about lunch at work. I had flashbacks of lunch in middle school and high school. I either sat alone or with the few friends I had and even then, I didnt want to be there.
If I do get a job and it happens to be an office job (I'm trying ot stay away from office jobs but I cant be picky), I am so worried about lunch with coworkers. I can leave and go somewhere but what if they invite me one day.

I am jumping way ahead of myself but this is me everyday. Panicking about things that arent a big deal to most.

I can see your struggly so you should maybe first learn to control your panic attacks before entering a job ? or accept that it can happen and tell your boss about it ?

i know its hard, and it is so sad to have panic attacks but even though you have them, you can still do the things you want , if you just listen to what you feel and are scared of, you should check if its really neccesary to be scared off. it might sound odd, but lunching isnt the end of the world, all though i can totally relate to the fact because i am the same. but if you try it, and you are in a mood with no panic feelings, you feel much better.

have you thought of taking medication for panic attacks ? or meditating before going somewhere and after ? have you thought of relaxation more for your body ? or drink more water or take special vitamins ? or do something to become more relaxed each day ? if your body panic it basically means you are worrying too much or your body is too tired and needs to get the tension out, so let it come out and try to not let it happen again and if it happens again try to focus on acceptance + relaxation, its not fun but you will endure it if you just relax more, all though it is a hell but you can cure it, or at least make the panic attacks become less ^_^

and the lunch, don't feel weird or something, i am at a clinic for my panic disorder/social phobia/bipolar (to fight, im a normal girl not a freak) and well, i cannot lunch with the others (there 20 others in the clinic) so i feel stupid too about it, but actually we are the same so you know theres someone in the same boat.

 

[laure15]

I had a mini panic attack after thinking about lunch at work. I had flashbacks of lunch in middle school and high school. I either sat alone or with the few friends I had and even then, I didnt want to be there.

You're not alone. In middle school and high school, lunch was the worst time of the day. I couldn't stand the chaos and cacophany of the cafeteria.

 

[jryden]

You're not alone. In middle school and high school, lunch was the worst time of the day. I couldn't stand the chaos and cacophany of the cafeteria.

Yes. The noise and the amount of ppl OMG I'd rather have starved than go there.
I felt like they were all watching me in line. I'd be nervous before getting to the lunch lady to pay.
Sometimes I'd go in a shorter line for something I didnt want to eat b/c other lines had too many ppl in it.

 

[jryden]

I can see your struggly so you should maybe first learn to control your panic attacks before entering a job ? or accept that it can happen and tell your boss about it ?

i know its hard, and it is so sad to have panic attacks but even though you have them, you can still do the things you want , if you just listen to what you feel and are scared of, you should check if its really neccesary to be scared off. it might sound odd, but lunching isnt the end of the world, all though i can totally relate to the fact because i am the same. but if you try it, and you are in a mood with no panic feelings, you feel much better.

have you thought of taking medication for panic attacks ? or meditating before going somewhere and after ? have you thought of relaxation more for your body ? or drink more water or take special vitamins ? or do something to become more relaxed each day ? if your body panic it basically means you are worrying too much or your body is too tired and needs to get the tension out, so let it come out and try to not let it happen again and if it happens again try to focus on acceptance + relaxation, its not fun but you will endure it if you just relax more, all though it is a hell but you can cure it, or at least make the panic attacks become less ^_^

and the lunch, don't feel weird or something, i am at a clinic for my panic disorder/social phobia/bipolar (to fight, im a normal girl not a freak) and well, i cannot lunch with the others (there 20 others in the clinic) so i feel stupid too about it, but actually we are the same so you know theres someone in the same boat.

If I have a panic attack at home, then I usually can do something to calm myself down because I can go be alone in a room and have the time. At work or school, you dont have that. With school, I'd have them right in the middle of everyone-although they couldnt tell.
I wish I could get help but I cant afford it and it might require telling one of my family members, which I WONT do.