sorry for the long story, but hope somebody can relate
I have gone out partying for the first time since almost 2 years with friends
it was so great, the problem is im half deaf so I don''t even hear my
self talking, and thats why I don't like to go clubs whehere the noise is so loud... im just staring all night
But when we were going to clubs with where the noise is not
so loud en hear my self and other talk.. im almost the
loudest and active person.. with alchol
( I really didn't realise it because of the above I just though parting was nothing for me)
damn what do I have missed the last years im 21 , I now realise
how much I have missed so much fun.
Im quit handsome everybody says and all the girls were just coming to
me one-bye-one lol
pfff what have I done with my life, the last few years could have been so
fun but I have litteraly destroyed it for my self.
Im gonna change now and party more,, but what do I hate my life after
everyone is going home ... I can't party 7 days of the week only 2 days going out so thats 5 days left over being depressed and anxious nervous kid around
people I don't well on school and work.... and im 21 now so after 3-4 years
everyone stops partying and going out and get a family life and work pretty much all day long .... but the problem is I can't barely work and go to school to tensed and fogged anxious mind.
**** **** **** it ! why do can''t I just stop worrying about everything , im looking like **** girl .
Im a very angry bittered yong man sorry about this rant
I have gone out partying for the first time since almost 2 years with friends
it was so great, the problem is im half deaf so I don''t even hear my
self talking, and thats why I don't like to go clubs whehere the noise is so loud... im just staring all night
But when we were going to clubs with where the noise is not
so loud en hear my self and other talk.. im almost the
loudest and active person.. with alchol
damn what do I have missed the last years im 21 , I now realise
how much I have missed so much fun.
Im quit handsome everybody says and all the girls were just coming to
me one-bye-one lol
pfff what have I done with my life, the last few years could have been so
fun but I have litteraly destroyed it for my self.
Im gonna change now and party more,, but what do I hate my life after
everyone is going home ... I can't party 7 days of the week only 2 days going out so thats 5 days left over being depressed and anxious nervous kid around
people I don't well on school and work.... and im 21 now so after 3-4 years
everyone stops partying and going out and get a family life and work pretty much all day long .... but the problem is I can't barely work and go to school to tensed and fogged anxious mind.
**** **** **** it ! why do can''t I just stop worrying about everything , im looking like **** girl .
Im a very angry bittered yong man sorry about this rant
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