xtina_fan81
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i hate what SA has done to me. Its stripped me of everything i can or want to be. Dunno if its harder t have had SA all your life or not, but i havent always had it, i was one of the loudest in my group of friends when i was in primary school, it all changed when i went to secondary (when i was about 12). Soi know what its like to be fine around people and be happy and normal and relaxed around friends and ive just forgotten how it feels. i cant remember what its like to be able to talk and socialise normally and connecting to people and it just so frustrating EVERYTHING SEEMS SO HARD AND UNNATURAL NOW. i feel like an alien and im not meant to be around everyone else. its them and then its me seperate from everyone. I DONT KNOW HOW TO TALK TO PEOPLE. i cant just respond to people like i used to. Ive obviously grown up since i was an outgoing and confident personn so i its even harder to learn how to do it again. I HATE WHO SA MAKES ME. ITS NOT ME.IT TRAPS ME. I HATE IT. I FEEL LIKE IMIN PRISON ON ANOTHER PLANET AND I CAN SEE EVERYHTING BUT I CANT GET TOIT. I CANT BREAK THE SEAL AND BE MYSELF. ::::