NickyNacker
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Sooo... I have a hard time showing emotions in front of family. Does anyone else have that? Christmas/Thanksgiving are so hard because you're forced to be social and go to large gatherings. It's been okay so far this year. Christmas morning wasn't that bad. Me, my mom, and two sisters. Then I had my moms parents Xmas lunch, and that was kinda hard. I didn't get up from the couch, not even to eat. But tonight is the worst of them all. Me and my dad do not talk at all, and this is his parents family dinner. And this year he got me a present, so I can't just completely ignore him as usual. The biggest thing that makes me uncomfortable/anxious around my family is that I'm gay, and that I'm not so comfortable acting myself around them... I'm too scared. My dad and his parents are the only people in the family that don't know, which makes it that much more awkward. It's the huge elephant in the room. Thanksgiving is hard enough, but with Christmas there's gifts so I can't just sit on the couch. We have to open presents one at a time in front of everyone. So basically you're sitting there opening your present while everyone watches you in silence. It's horrible!!!! And I have to try SOOO hard to act happy. I don't know what to do... I don't want to go, but I still live at home (I'm 18) and my mom treats me like a baby and says I have to. Even though she knows how hard it is for me to be around them. I just don't know what to do, and I'm so nervous/scared/anxious.
I apologize for writing such a long personal post, but I didn't know what else to do, and needed to get it off my chest.
I apologize for writing such a long personal post, but I didn't know what else to do, and needed to get it off my chest.