All my cumulative anxiety and sad and negative thoughts just piled up on me today and exploded, which I knew it would. It seems that my SA is escalated when put into a situation with the opposite sex but now it's really branched out with my friends too and all my doubts about myself seem to be just raining down upon me. I am far from narcissistic but I'd like to think that I'm a very good friend. I try to put other people's feelings before my own and let them know that I'm always there for them whenever needed. So yesterday I had an awful day, feeling super depressed and today my best friend made me feel like the lowest I can imagine being right now because her boyfriend doesn't like me. All because I stuck up for her when they were fighting, she went back and now I look like the b-tch and he's mad at me. She wants to know why I won't just come up to their party and ignore him, being selfish enough to make me put myself into a bad situation just for her. Why is it that I do everything that a good person is suppose to for everyone but no one feels like I'm worth defending and fighting for?