Ebbe
Well-known member
Just a little rant, feel free to ignore me. Of course sympathy and offerings of chocolate and cups of tea would be appreciated too
I am disappointed in myself. Again. Whenever I start afresh somewhere, whether it is in a new job, school, city or even (in this case) a new country, I have so much hope. I imagine myself as a totally different, new, social person. I have lots of energy and make plans for meeting new people. I plan to participate in all possible social activities, and of course I imagine that all of this effort will be rewarded with many friends. Friends that get to see the real me, that I will feel comfortable with and will be spontaneous and funny with, and will like me for being me.
Alas, reality is not like that. After starting my job her, two months ago, I started just like that. I looked for local interest groups, I attempted to talk to co-workers and I even met with someone I met online who was also new in town. Unfortunately, I turn out not to be the bubbly person I am in my head, and am not able to keep a conversation going with anyone. After two months I haven't made any friends. I wish I could go to a Halloween-party this weekend, but no one has invited me. I wish I could do fun stuff with a group of friends.
Is this ever going to get better? I really am a fun person ::
This turned out to be a short rant. Even on the internet I am of few words.
I am disappointed in myself. Again. Whenever I start afresh somewhere, whether it is in a new job, school, city or even (in this case) a new country, I have so much hope. I imagine myself as a totally different, new, social person. I have lots of energy and make plans for meeting new people. I plan to participate in all possible social activities, and of course I imagine that all of this effort will be rewarded with many friends. Friends that get to see the real me, that I will feel comfortable with and will be spontaneous and funny with, and will like me for being me.
Alas, reality is not like that. After starting my job her, two months ago, I started just like that. I looked for local interest groups, I attempted to talk to co-workers and I even met with someone I met online who was also new in town. Unfortunately, I turn out not to be the bubbly person I am in my head, and am not able to keep a conversation going with anyone. After two months I haven't made any friends. I wish I could go to a Halloween-party this weekend, but no one has invited me. I wish I could do fun stuff with a group of friends.
Is this ever going to get better? I really am a fun person ::
This turned out to be a short rant. Even on the internet I am of few words.