I have felt depressed today, more than usual. I had an episode a couple of hours ago. My arm started twitching with repeated moment; I sometimes banged my fist on a hand surface. I was repeatedly laughing and talking to myself, one side positive the other chiding and egging me on to kill myself. I got a knife and started pointing and pulling away from me. What happened to me? I’m feeling fine now, I would never go through with it, but what if I could not stop myself? It scares me, am I going crazy?