StonersAgony
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Hello everyone, I'm a 22yo male with SA and self esteem issues. Recently. I've been pushing through my SA with the help of Pokemon Go. Now I haven't exactly been a chaty Kathy and I avoid groups like the plague but, I occasionally chat with people I bump into. Big step for me TBH. I even met a couple pretty cool guys that I'd like to befriend but, I haven't seen them around in awhile.
Now here's where things have backfired. I keep getting randomly insulted. Mostly in the form of drive by shouting. Here's one example (of many), today I was mowing my yard and it was hot so I decided to man up and take off my hat and shirt. I'm not insecure about my body but, I started balding a few years ago and I'm very insecure about it. I keep my head shaved and always wear a hat. Afterwards some random drove by and shouted "bald qu33r" at me. It's total BS. I have a small yard and live in a small town. I was outside maybe 15min and like 3 cars went by and I get insulted that quickly! I know that drive by shouters are just pussies too afraid to insult someone face to face but, in combination with all the other insults I've gotten the past month or so, I feel like shit and I'm sinking even deeper into despair. :kickingmyself:
Before I started pushing myself to face my fears of judgement. I legitimately thought that most of my insecurities where just me being too harsh on myself. I thought that most people weren't actually judging me negatively but, apparently, It's happening even more that I thought and I honestly want to stop going out before my self image is completely destroyed. What should I do?
Now here's where things have backfired. I keep getting randomly insulted. Mostly in the form of drive by shouting. Here's one example (of many), today I was mowing my yard and it was hot so I decided to man up and take off my hat and shirt. I'm not insecure about my body but, I started balding a few years ago and I'm very insecure about it. I keep my head shaved and always wear a hat. Afterwards some random drove by and shouted "bald qu33r" at me. It's total BS. I have a small yard and live in a small town. I was outside maybe 15min and like 3 cars went by and I get insulted that quickly! I know that drive by shouters are just pussies too afraid to insult someone face to face but, in combination with all the other insults I've gotten the past month or so, I feel like shit and I'm sinking even deeper into despair. :kickingmyself:
Before I started pushing myself to face my fears of judgement. I legitimately thought that most of my insecurities where just me being too harsh on myself. I thought that most people weren't actually judging me negatively but, apparently, It's happening even more that I thought and I honestly want to stop going out before my self image is completely destroyed. What should I do?