Obstacle 1
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I managed to get talking to a girl online recently, we caught up for a coffee which ended up lasting a few hours, we have caught up a couple of times after and we were getting closer slowly, I even somehow managed to kiss her goodnight the last time we met..
But yesterday I called her to call it all off, I said we weren't connecting.. now I have no idea why I did this and it is eating me up inside, I feel I have made a big mistake even though it felt right at the time.. the reality of it was the situation in general was causing me a lot of stress, on top of university stress and work stress it was too much to handle and it ended up feeding my insecurities. Now hindsight being 20/20 I realise I was just reading it all wrong in my state of anxiety. I wish I just told her how I felt and let her decide what to do with it before jumping off the ship.. I guess a hard lesson learned.
It is too late now, I haven't slept, I want to message her and say I was wrong, I really liked her too much.. but it wouldn't fix anything....*sigh*
But yesterday I called her to call it all off, I said we weren't connecting.. now I have no idea why I did this and it is eating me up inside, I feel I have made a big mistake even though it felt right at the time.. the reality of it was the situation in general was causing me a lot of stress, on top of university stress and work stress it was too much to handle and it ended up feeding my insecurities. Now hindsight being 20/20 I realise I was just reading it all wrong in my state of anxiety. I wish I just told her how I felt and let her decide what to do with it before jumping off the ship.. I guess a hard lesson learned.
It is too late now, I haven't slept, I want to message her and say I was wrong, I really liked her too much.. but it wouldn't fix anything....*sigh*