Hottie
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Uggghh i am not olooking forward to a few hours htime. I have to meet with the other volunteers (most i have never met) and sit there and have a drink with them. I could stand the anxiety symptoms but i am afraid i will have a blushing attack wich just makes me want to die inside when it happens.
Firstly i am broke and have no money to be spending as im going away on saturday, secondly i dont want to drink becoz im afraid of my drunkeness. Last weekend had a very violent drunken rage (not going into details) and figured in need to give up the booze for a while becoz i have turned into someone who i always said i never would.
I want to get drunk befor i even go here today. I will take a xanax anyway but one (second highest strenght) doent do **** really for me anyway. I would prefer to take two or even three but i know that is not a good decision. I have already taken one xanax on mon, tues & wed...now thursay (i havde had stuff going on all week).
I dont know what to do, im so worried about all this, even though. to a 'normal' person this should be fun and is no sweat of there back.
Uggh i wish i just didnt have to go but i do and they insisted i go. Do you think it would be okay to take two xanax? What other soluntions do i have? Drink before i go...i cant do that now...so im lost
Firstly i am broke and have no money to be spending as im going away on saturday, secondly i dont want to drink becoz im afraid of my drunkeness. Last weekend had a very violent drunken rage (not going into details) and figured in need to give up the booze for a while becoz i have turned into someone who i always said i never would.
I want to get drunk befor i even go here today. I will take a xanax anyway but one (second highest strenght) doent do **** really for me anyway. I would prefer to take two or even three but i know that is not a good decision. I have already taken one xanax on mon, tues & wed...now thursay (i havde had stuff going on all week).
I dont know what to do, im so worried about all this, even though. to a 'normal' person this should be fun and is no sweat of there back.
Uggh i wish i just didnt have to go but i do and they insisted i go. Do you think it would be okay to take two xanax? What other soluntions do i have? Drink before i go...i cant do that now...so im lost